>.>....

I'm still feeling really sick - but hey, at least my exams are all over... I got through my law exam ok - I hope. I'm pretty confident I'll pass at least. Now I just gotta get better - 'coz I'm not feeling well at all....

Yours with a dizzy head -

Bj.

I've been off again-

I've been off procrastinating and somehow I have to deal with my law exam that's tomorrow at 9:00 am sharp. I feel really ill - I just don't want to do it... X / Ick. Sleep. I need to sleep. Then maybe I can get my stuff in order...

Questions?

Sometimes things go all weird - you know, like when someone (yes - it's a guy... = P) treats you a certain way for such a while - then you start to expect it... And well, even if you're okay with how things go, you still get disappointed or whatever... Doesn't it suck? I always find it leaves me with questions - as in why? Was it something I did/said/didn't do/say??? What happened or I am reading to much/have read to much into his actions? *sigh* Life is so confusing. I really do get sick of it sometimes. All the hurting and confusing - everything spins into meltdown....

Pfft! Chucking my concerns aside, I'll live life and get over it!

Adios amigos,

Boni.

P.s. - Funny how I never really think about what I'm really thinking until I sit down and write. It seems that everything in my subconcious comes out - I wonder if I need to overload my poor Blog all the time with all the D&M stuff???!!!

P.s. II - Ohwell - it's gotta go somewere I guess! ^-^!

Whooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sssooooo syced! ^-^!!! I just finished my Communication Traditions Exam, and I think it went pretty well - so I'm fairly confident that I'll pass and WheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That means I don't have to think about it any more!!! Sweet Dude - totally sweeeet... = ) I'm gonna turn off my poor, overloaded, over abused brain and just relax. No work tonight - study or otherwise. YES!

Just a quick bitch about exams though - how much do they bite!!??! You have to cram so much useless info into your head just for two lousy hours, and then while you're taking the exam you find that:

A. You didn't stuff enough stuff into your head
B. You stuffed the WORNG stuff in
OR
C. You get a mental blank, plus a hand cramp and can't write no more anyways!!!

>= P''' ... It's enough to drive me sane.... And that takes a LOT of doing!!!!

Anyway, 'nuff of dat -- I'm freeeeeeee!!!!! Until tomorrow when I have to start studying for my three hour Laws of Commmuncation exam worth 70% (O.o') that I have on Wednesday... Fun. Fun. Fun. (so sacastic - just in case u couldn't tell! >.> )

Meh. I'm over it. Check ya l8r,

T.

*Beep-beep-beep*

*Beep-beep-beep* Warning! Warning! Brain Overload!!! Brain OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Introducing Boni 

Putting it off -

Yeah, I'm absolutely stupid for procrastinating studying for my exam this Friday, but I am. Still! Hey - at least I know what I want to do for one of the questions. Now I just have to work on the other two....

Brought a B'day pressie for my friend - hope he likes it! I mean, how hard is it to buy presents for guys???!!!! With girls - it's sssssooooo easy! Just a bit of jewelery(spelling ?), body stuff, makeup or a chick flick. Easy! Guys - pffft! I suppose you could always personally deliver them a six-pack or something, but geez - =P - I really don't think that's a good pressie to turn up with all the time... Hmmm - though if he doesn't like the shirt I brought him, I think I will just trade it in for some beer!

"Adorno and Horkheimer argue that '[t]he sociological theory that the loss of the support of objectively established religion, the dissolution of the last remnants of precapitalism, together with technological and social diffferentiation or specialisation, have led to cultural chaos is disproved every day; for culture now impresses the same stamp on everything'. How did they support this arguement? Do you agree? Explain.

Question 7, from my Communication Traditions Exams. Fun huh? Now you might be able to see why I'm procrastinating!!! -.-' But now I reeaallly must get on - so,

Ciao,

TB_o

Meep

I can't believe it's another month again - and *gulp* that it's only two months away until the end of the year!!! It's crazy how life goes soooo quickly! I have my own theory as to why that is - but I think it really makes sense.

It's just that while you are young your world is so small, and there is only so much stuff you have to do, or want to do. You have all the time in the world to do it, so time goes so slowly. The older you get, the bigger your world gets and the less time you have for everything you have to do - let alone want to do. Guess that's why time slips away so quickly. Sometimes I just want to have a small world again, but where's the fun in that?.....

I think you've gotta make time for the important things - not just the things you have to do. I know this isn't a new theory - lots of people talk about finding their "inner child" and yadayada, but it does have some truth to it. A child is amazed by the world it sees, the places it goes and the people it meets - it doesn't take the beauty around it for granted and never says "No" to something different because it's scared. Life is infinitely precious - don't let it slip by on the wings of time.

But enough of that - it's time to go.

Bye for now! T. ^ ^!

almost free...

Almost there! Not just with Uni though - maybe, sort of, I think that I might be getting there in other ways too...

But firstly - this Friday is my first exam - then the following Wednesday is my last exam - it's almost all over, I'm almost free from wretched Uni! YAY!!! ^^!

But as to the other stuff - I think I've got a long ways to go - maybe... I'm free to be my own person - a servant of God, yet even as I know that, it seems like I'm trapped somehow. I'm not sure if it's because I'm still living at home and it seems like the whole house is keeping me down - maybe I'm ready to go. Maybe I'm ready - but why am I still so scared? What if the only thing that's stopping me from flying is myself? *sigh* I don't know, but if I find the answer I'll be sure to tell you.

Currently questioning,

Boni.

Procrastinating... -.-'

Yup. I am procrastinating - I'm supposed to be studying for my Communications Traditions exam that's on the fourth (Friday) of October. Two weeks to study, more or less, but I do have to study for my Law of Communications exam which is on the following Wednesday. Right now, I can't be bothered!! I'd much prefer to tell you about all the stuff that I haven't had a chance to write about. Well - not publicly, but you can bet your fuzzy pink toe-socks (Squuueeee! I jist lUff Fuzzy Pink ToeSockS! ^^!) that my Journal's heard all about it!!!

Like - My darling sister and I climbed up Mt. Taylor last Sunday (the 23rd) and blew bubbles up on the very tip-top of the world! At least, it was the tip-top in a direct vertical line down from our feet - but we'll ignore that fact!!! Heh - it just ruins all the fun....

And I went running around in the thunder storm yesterday evening - went and climbed a cliff and watched lighting play over the darkened skies of the city. Now that was cool. I doubt many people really know how obsessed I really am with thunderstorms. There's just something about them that speaks to me, and I just get so restless until I'm out in the wind and rain...

But enough of my random weirdness - well - not quite, 'coz I still don't want to study! >.>' So if I ramble please excuse me because I don't wanna stop, but I'm not sure I have much else to say - which in all actual truth that statement is not quite the truth because there is a lot I want to say, but maybe not now, maybe just because I don't even know what it is I want to say or will be saying, but in all retrospect - truth is so irrelevant anyway!

Meep! -.-' I think that line of thought had better stop there as there is no way I can follow it - though truthfully, I proably can.... And I'm just wondering whether or not any of you - whoever you are - can either? Which reminds me -

"I am who I think you think I am." Great isn't it? That was Cooly's Looking Glass Self. Which leaves me with a sore brain - not that I don't understand what he's trying to say - no, it's more this:

Well, if I am who I think you think I am - where does my whole "Running from the image that I think you think I am thing" come in? As in, if I really am who I think you think I am - that really doesn't work for me - as in, I think that I am the opposite of what I think that you think I am - at least I try to be the opposite!!! Meh - maybe I'm not. But if I think that you think that I am boring - does that really make me boring as I think that I am not boring, or at least try not to be boring and that it has nothing to do with what you think I am therefore???

O.o ...

Now you know why I have a sore brain! Not really - but hey - itsn't all fun?? ^^

Lol - please comment if you wish - I think it'd be great to hear what you think I am and whether or not I really am whom I think you think I am!

TTFN - TinkaBell

Watching and waiting....

Got my presentation over and done with (Thank goodness) and I got a credit plus on my essay which I had been totally stressing over!!! Would have got a distiction if I could speak "literary-ese", but I'm happy with what I got as it is - as in more like absolutely stoked! ^ ^

Just a quick note - I'm twenty in three days and that is sooooo incredably scary!!!! But hey, just another beat of my butterfly wings life... I'll live on, love on and DEFINATELY rock on!!!


Off to practise my layouts -

TinkaBell

Nose to the grind stone

Really putting my head down, and my socks up... I may be well and truely over Uni for this semester, but I'm getting on as I only have four weeks and two days until my exams are over, and I'm FFFFRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So. For now it's all about work, work, work as I really have to finish my last assessment peice and start studying for my exams. = P Even as I write this I just go - bleeergh... Icky work. But anyways, that's enough of the that. It's movtivation time!!!

Off to do some more Uni work after a 9:30 to 3:30 tut/assignment slog,

Boni.

Honey - I'm home!

Well, not really - but I'm back from Stump and I am still struggling with the whole getting "back to reality" (reality bites....) thing. But 'neways, I gotta get into my Uni work as there are only five weeks (ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!) until my exams is over, and I'm free for the rest of the year!!! BUT before I start cheering, I really gotta survive my exams first... >.>' *sigh* Oiy.

Besides that I'm having fun hanging with my friends and Crew so's it's all good. Distracting, but good. ^ ^ !


Oooo_uT for now,

TinkaBell.

Black SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTUM-PH!!!

Wella - it's gonna be ab-so-bally-LUTE-ly rockin' - I'm so syced about it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ^_^

I'll up date on the way it goes later - but for now, I'm just hanging out for the fun to start. I'm planning to see Sons of Korah, Antiskeptic, Wishful Thinking and many, many more.... Dude. That is so freakin' awesome. I just hope I got everything, or there might be some issues... Naw. I't'll b kool. But that is one problem with camping - it is sssooo easy to forget something!!!

off for a stupendious trip-

Boni. ^_^

going crazy

Black Stump's on this weekend and I can't wait to get there!!! It's gonna be absolutely nuts! Whooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in a bit of a wild mood tonight - I think it's the thunder, it always gets me restless, like I'm riding on the front of the wind, streaming over dancing treetops - spiraling high through the black thunder-heads... I'm riding the storm tonight and I'm not ready to stop.....




Tinka.

*silence*

Well. Stuff hasn't been that good this week, I had a 30% assignment due at the end of the week and I didn't know what to do on it... Yep, I procrastinated and procrastinated and procrastinated until it was the due day. I spent six hours straight on the computer finishing it off, and then I couldn't print it out so I have to wait until Monday to hand it in after all that!!! >0<

Having guy probs again... Sometimes I can cope with being single an' I love it, but sometimes, sometimes it just hits me. That lonely ache. Like when I'm hanging with guy friends, or watching movies with realllllyyyyy REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY hot guys like Alex Capelli, who plays in "Hating Alison Ashley"... *drools* Uuwahhh! I luff Alex. >.>'
Then I go from having a buried little lonely ache into a big, huge, giganta-MONGUS lonely ache!! Guess I'll just have to stop watching movies with Alex Cappelli
and Omarion Grandberry in them. .................................................... yeah, right! -.-

Check y'all l8r,

T.

Quick note-

Just dropping in to say that I love snowshoeing, best friends, hanging out with the Crew, staying out late, sleeping in, my new bag, waiting for exciting stuff, music, and gymnastics. Other quick note to say I hate assignments, breaking down cars, spending my saved money, boys, being tired, ends of holidays, boys, not having enough time, not knowing what to do with essays, BOYS, and that little lonely ache I get some times....

That's about my life over the last week or so, and what it's consisted of.
Adios amigos,

Bonita. (a.k.a Tinka)

OOOOO- YAY!!!!!

"I'm walking on sunshine - whoaaaayeaHHH!"

So totally describes my mood right now - I'm walking sunshine !!!! An' don't feel good?? HOOO YE_AHHHH!!!! Why you ask? Just because!!! No, actually, there are lots of reasons - one of them being that I've finished the rough draft of an important essay due this Friday, and all I have to do is get my Dad to check it, and it's done!!! AND because I went on this awesome camp over the weekend - FREEZE. It's for yrs 12 to 25ish and it was GREAT! I learned HEAPS about God through His Word, and I had awesome time with my friends.

The best thing I learned was that even though I fail misarably at honoring God more often than not ( >.>' ), it doesn't matter because in Jesus I am made 10/10 with God! YAYYAY!!!! ^ ^ Of course that doesn't mean I can go living how ever I want, because then there are serious consequences, but if in my human weakness, I fall (ok, and I do that a lot) He'll pick me up, and it's all good. Thankyou God.

And beside that - it's just a Bea-UUUUtiFUl spring day - number seven to be exact - and I'm soo happy.

My prayer is that anyone who reads this may find the same joy and peace I've found. It's not too far away, just reach out for God and He will answer.

Lots of LOVE, Tink.

P.S. Can't forget the other reason why I'm so happy - it's Class Free for Uni students for the next two weeks, and I might be going to visit my bestie in Jindabyne next week which'll be awesome! yay. ^ ^

On top of things - for now

Coping for now with assignments, work, friends and life - I think eveything's ok atm. *nodds head* yep. It's all good. *claps hands* Yayyyy!!! >_<

I have an assignment due this Friday, and I'm getting on with it ok - I did a big one last week, and got it in ten minutes before the dead line (MEEEP! O.o' ) *shush - don't tell Daddy!* , I was so relieved when that was finished. I wasn't late because I left it to the last minute - no, in fact I think I spent too much time correcting. All up I spent ten hours on it - I hope that was enough... I really want to do well with the assesment.

Had fun out with my Crew on Saturday night, and I'm going away to FREEZE this weekend! No - not literally, ( or maybe literally?!? There's a thought! >.> ) Anyway, FREEZE is this awesome camp for year 12s to Uni age (about 25 year olds), in Cooma. We get great Bible teaching, and have fun fellowshiping with other denominations, and make new friends. It's GR-8!! = )

Well, that's it from me for now -

Huasta Leugo,

TB_o.

Hard

It's so hard when your best friend get a boyfriend. I mean, it's not like I'm unhappy 'coz she's got one. In fact I think it's great. It's just that she wants to spend her time with him. Mostly more than she does with me. I know that she's proabably not doing it on purpose - she's not the kind of girl to intentionally hurt anyone. It's just the way things go sometimes. But that doesn't make me feel any better when I'm the one getting ditched!!!

*sigh* Ahh well. Maybe it'll give me a chance to get to know some other people better. = ) I'm sure it'll be ok. I think I just need to talk to her a bit. Commmunication pretty much always helps!!

This theory of mine, by the way, has never failed me yet! ^^

Signing out for now,

T.