*brain melts*

Gah. *brain melts* I'm utterly exhausted.

Did uni all day today - but that also included an interview with a recruitment agency. It went well, the agency even said that there was a job that they'd put me forward for right away. I hate to say 'It sounds perfect'; 'coz every dang time I say that - I never get the stupid job!! Plus, they might have already fill the position. So I'll just say that it sounds good. And that I hope that I get it. But other than that, it's life. We'll see how we go.


Been working on Gamenian lots - I sure hope we get the manuscript finished before the end of 2009, I want to graduate and send in the manuscript! I think we might even be able to do it; after all, I'll keep working on it, pushing my sister and we'll get through. It's really getting on now too. Yay!!! >_<


Opened up a new Deviant account for my professional art. It'll have to do until I earn enough to get a professional to design a gallery website for me. I don't think my sister and I can quite get our own site off the ground. And it just doesn't look all that good. Anyway - I'm going to make a banner for the page and I'll put up some of my better pieces. I'll try and show a good range - one of these days I will get to a professional status as an artist!

:3, b.



P.s - Any one who wants comission me - just leave me a note on my deviant comments. I will do anything for a good price.

*whaaaa!* :'(

Life sucks. I just wanna go back to my nice little Teen Ranch Bubble. Sure, things weren't always the greatest over there - I had my share of stresses over friends and suckiness, but I don't remember it being this hard to get up in the mornings...


"I'm a nightmare/
A disaster/
That's what they always said/
I'm a lost cause/
Not a hero....."


Everything is just wack at the moment. My Dad's in hospital with a crushed foot and the only offer of help I get comes from an online chat with someone who is very sweet, but I scarcely know them.

My sister has a random aches and pains - the doctors don't know what's wrong. She's had tests - but no results....


My friends are giving me major headaches. I'm walking on eggshells - and basically I'm dammed if I do, and absolutely dammed if I don't... *cries*


I don't know what to do!!! I don't know who to turn to, I don't know why things got this bad.



"I cry out with no reply/
And I can feel you by my side....

And though you're invisible/
I trust in you."



But enough of the emo-muffin-ness. You don't want to read about my black and blue emotions - they'll just turn you emo too!


Bruised but hanging in there,

b.

Back home - so what to do?

I have two choices, much like all of life, I'm making them with no idea how or where or why I'm doing this..... Okay, so I exaggerate a litte. A bit. Alright already - a LOT!

I do know why, or where, but as to time? Well, a little lost there. I have two choices (I think) either stay at uni this semester and do two more subjects I don't need to do to graduate (This is I think part - I've gotta make sure that's the case) or stop uni and look for a job until next year. The problem is finding a job. Nobody's hiring.... :p


So left or right? Yay or nay? I dunno; I'm still waiting on an email from my course convenor. University people are so dang slow!!! All I need is a blinkin yes or no answer! I don't even know if it's too late to drop out yet. Gr.


Anyways, on that front it's more than a little stressful; but that's life.


Trying to get my website up and running so that I can get on with my mission to get my art work published! Yes, I have determined a new life goal of becoming a professional author/artist, but of course, that takes a heck of a lot of work, so it'll take a while. But I will succeed!!!!

Laterz - I gotta go peek at this movie.


Sayanara.... b.