---- Silence ----

Heheh. Can't think straight - I'm sooo starting to get really nervous. These exams are going to kill me!!! Gah. Gotta stop being so negative about them. *takes a deep breath* No, I'll be fine. It's going to be okay.

I'm going to a part-A, I'm going to a part-AAA!!!!! Yey! This weekend (yes - the weekend before exams) is my bestest friend's 18th birthday party. It's gonna be great fun!

But right now, I don't feel like celebrating for some reason. I'm in a silent mood I guess. I'm not really sure of the characteristics of a silent mood - besides the silence (DUH), but it's definately a grey mood. Hmm. Dunno why though. It's not the exams, and it's not financial troubles, or lack of socialness. It's not because things are bad - God has been extremely good to me and my family. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do. *whaaa* I need a hug!!! :'(

*sighs* owell, back to life. At least I don't have to stand on my own - I know that He is with me, and that's better than anything.

Down in the grey for now,
Tinka.

Perfect

"It's got to be - ooohohyeah - per_fect. It's got to be - ooohohhhoyeah - peeeerrrrrr _FECT!"

The last week has been the topest week ever! Super-duper busy, but still tops. It all started Saturday night, when I went to the UBD gig, then hung out with my friends til 2:00am. Then on Sunday I had a great day at my new work, Hill Station, then my Dad AND Mum both got new jobs as well, (THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU LORD!) then I got that Report done, then I went to my friend's 20th after painting him his Birthday present ( picture which I think he liked ) and then I hung out with my friends again, then I went to work on Friday night, which was good, and THEN on Saturday I had a sleepover with my sister, and her friend which was really fun, and today's been really good and everything is just better then PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!

*happy sigh* I think I'm am finally moving off that crush as well, even though I totally got it back last weekend, but now I hope I'm able to move on. But that's really good. Only have to survive my exams - and squeeeeeeee! I'm just loving life! Time for bed now though,

Kisses an' Huggles,

TinkaBell ~_^

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

I have had the BESTTTT weekend - got to go to a Use By Date concert Saturday night, got a new job, which is turning out to be super-fantastic, had soooo much fun with my friends Saturday night - Wheeee! I'm so happy! Thankyou Lord for being the bestest!
Mind you, I'm also happily tiredddd. Stayed up 'til 2:00 am Sat., and couldn't go to sleep 'til 12:00 am last night. I can hardly keep my eyes open. And I still haven't finished that @#)#$$ report that's due this Wednesday first thing, and I have to work tomorrow at 11:00 am to about 3:00 - 4:00, maybe later... And biggest narky thing of all - my exams are in two weeks time, including this week. --- *sigh* ---
But once all that is over, life'll be really sweet for a while. I'm getting my car (FINALLY) soon, and with the cash flow, and friends, and SoL, it's gonna be pretty awesome. Just gotta get through these last two weeks. Please Lord, give me strength.

Yours half happy, a quarter tired and a quarter scared,

Tinka.

Work - or rather procrastintation.

So much work to do and all I can do is procrastinate... I have a lot of stuff that I have to do at home, and tomorrow is my only day to do it. AND tomorrow is going to be chokers with an interview, running my sister around, and going to Tugganerong to drop in a resume and go shopping for the UBD concert. At least, my sister's going shopping - I'm just the chauffeur!

Gah. Okay, sorting stuff out... Can't do IMEC prep. here (at Uni), can do C.F. prep. and some of my Report for IMEC. Alrighty, really should be working now.... Now.... Now.... Now..... Now...... Now........................................................ >>'

Gah. Bye. T.

OHHH!

USE BY DATE ARE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oooohhh ye-aH!!! ^^

I can't believe I almost forgot to tell the world - Use By Date are back in business!! SQUEEEE! *.* I don't know for how long, but they're playing a gig next Saturday night, and I'm soooo stoked. (If I had my way, this font would be gittery gold, but plain gold was as close as I could get!) Man, next Saturday is going to ROOOOCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry about the double post, I just had to inform everyone of the happy, happy news!!! *bounces off singing to herself* Forever, forever, forever - Eternity!!!!

Byyyeee - Tink. ^^

New again

It is a new month again - gee, time flys so quickly - I hardly know where the days go. This month is exams - actually, they're in three weeks time (meep!) and I've got one report to do and that's all the major assesment then this term is over. OVER! OVER I TELL YOU! That is so scary - I could hardly imaigine going to Uni, and now, I'm almost at the end of my cross-over program.

Good stuff has been happening though - got an interveiw which I hope will work out, Rusty is being an ABSOLUTE pain, but is sloooowwwwllly coming right, I'm getting on with my graphic novel, and I will soon be free to start up my band! Sweeet Dude, totally swweeeeet! ^-^

*sigh* Thanks God for being so awesome, and helping me through life.

Gotta go, T.

SupA chic

Dear Diary,

I met this guy at a show,
He was singing to me - at least I think so...

Ha. Take off Super [Chick] , I know - but so true. That's how I fell over into a huge crush for... Well, a huge crush on my crush. (Sooo not mentioning any names - you never know who might read this!!!)
I'm still not over him, even after months of mix-ups, not speaking to each other, only MSNing, living (or DIEING) through another girl.... Whaaaa!!!! That still hurts! No, he didn't get her, but he told me alll about it! >< *sigh* and telling him off, ever so slightly, then him being nice to me - *shock*, instead of ignoring my exsistance..... Yeah, I know. I'm so pathetic, yearning after a boy who barely knows me, let alone cares for me. Yet, as much as I would, I can not steal my heart back.

Anyway, enough of pathetic girlyness, - hmmmm, that's so weird. I was just reading over wht I had written, and I think I realise the problem. He is just a boy. So far, not that I can really judge, 'coz he won't communicate with me the important stuff (like the thoughts in his head), he is just a boy. Not a man. ................................

Whoa. That's really big. I guess I would also describe myself - through a guy's eyes, as just a girl too. And maybe that's everything. How can a boy really commit to anything, and how can a boy protect my heart? And how can I, as a girl, be the woman he needs to stand at his side - to give him what he needs. .......................

I've just has a major revelation. What I'm looking for the man I need. Not to live - for all I need for that is God, but just to not be lonely, to have someone who shares how I work, think, what makes me me, and delights in that on this Earth. And for that I need a man. Not a boy. Maybe I should be gald that my crush doesn't notice me. For if he proved to be the man I need, would I prove to be the woman he needs? O. That's a gigantious thought.

At the moment, however, I don't think the guy I like is a man. I don't know for sure, I don't know him all that well, for he won't let me know him well. But in any case, from what I can tell, what he's said to me, he still just a boy - wanting to have fun, and not caring how he gets it.

That's sad. I wish it weren't that way, but it is. What will be, will be.

All in the Lord's timing,

TinkaBell.