Watching and waiting....

Got my presentation over and done with (Thank goodness) and I got a credit plus on my essay which I had been totally stressing over!!! Would have got a distiction if I could speak "literary-ese", but I'm happy with what I got as it is - as in more like absolutely stoked! ^ ^

Just a quick note - I'm twenty in three days and that is sooooo incredably scary!!!! But hey, just another beat of my butterfly wings life... I'll live on, love on and DEFINATELY rock on!!!


Off to practise my layouts -

TinkaBell

Nose to the grind stone

Really putting my head down, and my socks up... I may be well and truely over Uni for this semester, but I'm getting on as I only have four weeks and two days until my exams are over, and I'm FFFFRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So. For now it's all about work, work, work as I really have to finish my last assessment peice and start studying for my exams. = P Even as I write this I just go - bleeergh... Icky work. But anyways, that's enough of the that. It's movtivation time!!!

Off to do some more Uni work after a 9:30 to 3:30 tut/assignment slog,

Boni.

Honey - I'm home!

Well, not really - but I'm back from Stump and I am still struggling with the whole getting "back to reality" (reality bites....) thing. But 'neways, I gotta get into my Uni work as there are only five weeks (ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!) until my exams is over, and I'm free for the rest of the year!!! BUT before I start cheering, I really gotta survive my exams first... >.>' *sigh* Oiy.

Besides that I'm having fun hanging with my friends and Crew so's it's all good. Distracting, but good. ^ ^ !


Oooo_uT for now,

TinkaBell.

Black SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTUM-PH!!!

Wella - it's gonna be ab-so-bally-LUTE-ly rockin' - I'm so syced about it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ^_^

I'll up date on the way it goes later - but for now, I'm just hanging out for the fun to start. I'm planning to see Sons of Korah, Antiskeptic, Wishful Thinking and many, many more.... Dude. That is so freakin' awesome. I just hope I got everything, or there might be some issues... Naw. I't'll b kool. But that is one problem with camping - it is sssooo easy to forget something!!!

off for a stupendious trip-

Boni. ^_^

going crazy

Black Stump's on this weekend and I can't wait to get there!!! It's gonna be absolutely nuts! Whooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in a bit of a wild mood tonight - I think it's the thunder, it always gets me restless, like I'm riding on the front of the wind, streaming over dancing treetops - spiraling high through the black thunder-heads... I'm riding the storm tonight and I'm not ready to stop.....




Tinka.

*silence*

Well. Stuff hasn't been that good this week, I had a 30% assignment due at the end of the week and I didn't know what to do on it... Yep, I procrastinated and procrastinated and procrastinated until it was the due day. I spent six hours straight on the computer finishing it off, and then I couldn't print it out so I have to wait until Monday to hand it in after all that!!! >0<

Having guy probs again... Sometimes I can cope with being single an' I love it, but sometimes, sometimes it just hits me. That lonely ache. Like when I'm hanging with guy friends, or watching movies with realllllyyyyy REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY hot guys like Alex Capelli, who plays in "Hating Alison Ashley"... *drools* Uuwahhh! I luff Alex. >.>'
Then I go from having a buried little lonely ache into a big, huge, giganta-MONGUS lonely ache!! Guess I'll just have to stop watching movies with Alex Cappelli
and Omarion Grandberry in them. .................................................... yeah, right! -.-

Check y'all l8r,

T.

Quick note-

Just dropping in to say that I love snowshoeing, best friends, hanging out with the Crew, staying out late, sleeping in, my new bag, waiting for exciting stuff, music, and gymnastics. Other quick note to say I hate assignments, breaking down cars, spending my saved money, boys, being tired, ends of holidays, boys, not having enough time, not knowing what to do with essays, BOYS, and that little lonely ache I get some times....

That's about my life over the last week or so, and what it's consisted of.
Adios amigos,

Bonita. (a.k.a Tinka)

OOOOO- YAY!!!!!

"I'm walking on sunshine - whoaaaayeaHHH!"

So totally describes my mood right now - I'm walking sunshine !!!! An' don't feel good?? HOOO YE_AHHHH!!!! Why you ask? Just because!!! No, actually, there are lots of reasons - one of them being that I've finished the rough draft of an important essay due this Friday, and all I have to do is get my Dad to check it, and it's done!!! AND because I went on this awesome camp over the weekend - FREEZE. It's for yrs 12 to 25ish and it was GREAT! I learned HEAPS about God through His Word, and I had awesome time with my friends.

The best thing I learned was that even though I fail misarably at honoring God more often than not ( >.>' ), it doesn't matter because in Jesus I am made 10/10 with God! YAYYAY!!!! ^ ^ Of course that doesn't mean I can go living how ever I want, because then there are serious consequences, but if in my human weakness, I fall (ok, and I do that a lot) He'll pick me up, and it's all good. Thankyou God.

And beside that - it's just a Bea-UUUUtiFUl spring day - number seven to be exact - and I'm soo happy.

My prayer is that anyone who reads this may find the same joy and peace I've found. It's not too far away, just reach out for God and He will answer.

Lots of LOVE, Tink.

P.S. Can't forget the other reason why I'm so happy - it's Class Free for Uni students for the next two weeks, and I might be going to visit my bestie in Jindabyne next week which'll be awesome! yay. ^ ^

On top of things - for now

Coping for now with assignments, work, friends and life - I think eveything's ok atm. *nodds head* yep. It's all good. *claps hands* Yayyyy!!! >_<

I have an assignment due this Friday, and I'm getting on with it ok - I did a big one last week, and got it in ten minutes before the dead line (MEEEP! O.o' ) *shush - don't tell Daddy!* , I was so relieved when that was finished. I wasn't late because I left it to the last minute - no, in fact I think I spent too much time correcting. All up I spent ten hours on it - I hope that was enough... I really want to do well with the assesment.

Had fun out with my Crew on Saturday night, and I'm going away to FREEZE this weekend! No - not literally, ( or maybe literally?!? There's a thought! >.> ) Anyway, FREEZE is this awesome camp for year 12s to Uni age (about 25 year olds), in Cooma. We get great Bible teaching, and have fun fellowshiping with other denominations, and make new friends. It's GR-8!! = )

Well, that's it from me for now -

Huasta Leugo,

TB_o.

Hard

It's so hard when your best friend get a boyfriend. I mean, it's not like I'm unhappy 'coz she's got one. In fact I think it's great. It's just that she wants to spend her time with him. Mostly more than she does with me. I know that she's proabably not doing it on purpose - she's not the kind of girl to intentionally hurt anyone. It's just the way things go sometimes. But that doesn't make me feel any better when I'm the one getting ditched!!!

*sigh* Ahh well. Maybe it'll give me a chance to get to know some other people better. = ) I'm sure it'll be ok. I think I just need to talk to her a bit. Commmunication pretty much always helps!!

This theory of mine, by the way, has never failed me yet! ^^

Signing out for now,

T.

Bleeeggch

I hate not getting good marks, and I almost died over my last lot of marks, but hey, I gotta get it wrong sometimes eh? Just like when we were playing hang-man in my tutorial, before the tutor came, and I couldn't spell right!!! >< meh. It's all good. Had a good day at work today, and I've finally got an MP3 player - yeah, I had to save up - not enough dough.... *sigh* It's so awful when your a poor uni student... ~_^

Me thinks that be all the news so far - so have a good one everyone, and I'll check y'all 'round l-8aaaaa!!! = ) T.

Too much?

I haven't got much ta say - just that isn't amazing how you can get hooked from one thing to another? I dunno about you, but I find that happens to me like all the time.

Like (ugh I hate that word, but whatever...) when I watch a movie that's got dance in it - it's like all I want to do is dance... And if someone's talking about writing, or drawing, or something like that I get hooked on that too. There is SOOOOOOOO much stuff I wanna be good at - drawing, dance, music(learning to play the guitar!!!), writing, gymnastics and horseriding are just like the first few that are really important to me - then there's iceskating, soccer, photography, singing, and goodness only knows what else.... o! Snowboarding, computing, learning languages... Can anyone tell me - is there such a thing as TOO many hobbies???? I really am beginning to think that there is. I mean, how can you ever really be good at anything if you don't focus solely on that thing??

Maybe I have to just stick with learning the guitar, writing, drawing and gymnastics. For now. Maybe... Gah - dunno when, maybe when I'm older I'll learn some of the other stuff. Maybe.

Husta Leugo,

Tinka.

To dance the night away...

Whee!! I'm off to a "Heros and Villians Ball" and I'm going as a villian!!!

I was going to go as Posion Ivey, but as I didn't have the right clothes, I changed my mind and now I'm the Snow Queen from The Chronicles of Narnia. ^^ Woot - sooo much fun!!
Oh yeah - and a BIIIIEEEEEEGGGGGG

Happy Birthday

to my gorgeous sister who is now fifteen!

Off to dance...

Tinka

Killiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes - killiiii (Kill - e) is the cry of the day when my stupid computer crashes!! *sigh* I wrote my microstory (400 words) for my Creative Writing class and than the program stuffed up and I lost it! I was ssoooo unhappy. And I had to write it over again - and of course, I couldn't remember the exact words. It's soo frustrating when that happens.

But I got over it, and wrote it again. I had to. And I'm not sure - but I almost think the story's better for it. But anyways, gotta go and get ready for work now -

Check ya, T.

Shruggs

Why is it that I always go and screw up everything???

Seriously, have you ever been on a roll - speaking out in your class, being friendly, doing something outside of yourself, and you've caught a weird glance from someone - anger, disgust, or horror?

I don't know what it is - but, *sigh* sometimes that happens to me - like today I talking in our discussion in our Tut. - not all the time, but at the end of the discussion, I caught something indescernable from my tutor - something not good, and I wonder if I've screwed up - talking to much or something. I was just trying to give feedback, but maybe I gave to much.

And even if I wasn't the intended reciepiant of the glance - I still question myself, and the way others veiw me. Am I really that insecure??? I guess I am. If the truth be told, I not sure if anyone else can see my insecurities - and I'm starting to feel that's a bad thing. Maybe. I DON'T KNOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >X O It's so frustrating - excuse my screaming, but I had to. How do other people see me????

Maybe I don't really want to know. It's not like I have a ton of friends, or a boyfriend for that matter - guess there's a reason. What it is I don't know, and I think if I did....


I'd break.



I'm the way I am, and no-one likes me like that. *plays the world's shortest tune, on the world's smallest violin* Sob-sob (sarcastically) I am so pathetic.


So, sorry all for the dump. I know I'm being stupid - or maybe I'm stupid full stop.

Your fool for life,

TinkaBell_o


Heck, a nickname like that - and I wonder why I'm so weird??? O.-

Ka-CHoO!!!

Headaches, sniffles and a nasty 'flu virus.... *sigh* Not cool. 'Specially when I've got work to do!!! Gah. Bye.

Have you?

Have you ever just written - not thinking what you are saying, but just getting your current thoughts down on page - hold you high and steal your pain, 'coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome - and I don't feel right when you've gone... Sitting by the rain streaked window... Playing, listening to the music of loneliness... Giving into the weakness... When I'm lonesome....

Meh. You really can't do that when your listening to a song - the words in your head - your voice, is drowned out by the more powerful emotions and words that the song betrays. How can an ordinary sound be heard when it is flooded with the extrodinary?

Anyways, I think that that's enough of that - though I did get a interesting little piece (bout 300 words) done when I was given a random phrase by someone out of my Creative Writing Tutorial - which, by the way, was heaps of fun. But my 400 word microstory, plus my discussion notes have to be written in a week's time. At least it'll be over and done with then!!

Practising

It seems that I can never get to a point of 'good' work with either my art or writing. I guess that's the whole
"Those who are satisfied with medeocrity will always succeed, but those who are only satisfied with perfection will always fail." But as comforting as that is for my thing about always failing, it doesn't help when I can never get there. Anywhere!

It would be nice to able to look at something I've done and say - yes, that is good work. In the meanwhile, I guess it's all about practising. That's the only way you get anywhere. By working. >.> I think it makes what you acheive more worthwhile. But it's so hard to get to the point of acheivement. But that's just my opinion!

adios.

Inspiration

a flight of fancy

a flight of fancy takes to wing -
riding boldly on the backs of stars -
twisting, turning, it flutters through dreams -
only leaving the touch of a golden step -
a thin, fading, trail that beckons alluringly.

glistening and shimmering -
a shaft of pure immagination -
peircing through what it will -
like a lone, sun sent ray.

a wandering vision -
a golden dream -
easier it is to cage a nightingale -
than to catch the fleeting glory.

but through the translator -
the quicksilver takes form -
flowing across the snow-white plain -
showing with every twist and turn -
a facet of the changing picture.

and so the dreamers dream -
striving to follow the path -
capturing the shadow -
with it's reflection of faieries, elfs and nymphs.

lifting for a heart beat -
the veil that divides the face of reality -
from the vision of fantasy -
unicorns, dragons and magical beasts -
woven through guiding tales before.

so when elusive inspiration takes wing -
coaxing, calling to the restless below -
Come, Come tame the flight of fancy -
If you can!



we will try...




I wrote that some time ago - but when I was in my first Creative Writing lecture yesterday, I forgot it. There's nothing like sitting down in a room full of eager, talented writers (or musicians, or what have you) to make you feel insiginificant - that maybe you're not good enough after all. I am definately feeling a sense of inadequat, unoriginality. It's not like anyone thinks I'm a good writer or anything. Far from it. It's just what I do. Give me a blank peice of paper and a pen, and I draw. Give me a beautiful senery and I write. Kind of messed up - I know. It's not that I can't live without writing either. I don't know. As I said before - I guess it's just something I do. *sigh* There really is nothing I do that is spectacular in any way, shape or form. I write, I draw, I sing and sometimes dance. I horseride and do gymnastics. I am a student who likes to learn. BIG whoop. As you maybe able to tell - I have a great sense of ordinary-ness about myself and I hate it.

please spare a thought for me -
above all i'd rather be -
only born of originality......

That's almost a prayer for me. Yet it's further from my ways than - than - than smoking and drinking coffee is!!! (Yes, I don't smoke and I despise coffee - the taste anyways)

Meh. Stuck in a rut with no way out. I'm going to stop now before I start weeping.

Distantly yours,

TinkaBell.

-_-'

Okay - I would love to say that the reason for my not updating my Blog over the last month and a half is that I was in the heart of darkest Peru and I don't have a wireless laptop. And because darkest Peru hasn't got a very good connection and I was too busy fighting Anacondas anywas, I couldn't update. -_-' But that would be lying. For the truth is that while I've had my Uni holidays I've been extremely lazy, and not done a thing. I was going to practice my art - hand drawn and computer drawn, and write a few songs and stuff these hols, I didn't do any of that at all.... I did seem to drive around a lot for my parents, doing various chores, but other then that I just watched a lot of T.V. Which is really unproductive, but meh.

I really do do a lot more stuff when I've got a regular schedule, and there's lots of stuff to be done. So for that reason I'm actually quite happy to be back at Uni. And also, I am totally get over the brain turning into mush thing. This semester I'm doing Creative Writing 2, (which I'm really looking forwards to as I get to create my own portfolio!!), Laws of Communications, (sounds a bit boring, but anyways), and Communication Traditions. Sweet dude, totally sweet.

Uh... I know there's more stuff to be caught up on...

Right - S.o.L. has been scuttled before it even began. I only had two other people interested in joining up, and they were both guitarist - which isn't bad, but it wasn't working unfortunately.
I've started my adult gymnastics classes again (I stopped when I got broke) and have been pleasantly surprised with strength of my muscle memory - aka- I can do the stuff I used too, O.O - but I have noticed that my general muscular strength has been wayyyyy depleted - along with flexibility.

There's been lots of dramas over the last month - I've had to learn a lot of painful lessons, and sometimes I ask myself why God has to teach me all this stuff all at once? Why do I have to be smashed - why couldn't I just get pulled apart bit by bit??? But then again, that might be even more painful! My bestie also has had a bit of a drama concerning boys, but what else is new?? Boys are such trouble. The good news is she's pulled through, and they're just friends. For now.

Me and my sister got up recently at an open mike night - no preparation, and no backing, and sung 'The Water Buffalo Song' - the Veggie Rocks version, and it was fun!! Mind you, I don't think I'll be doing it again like that - but I would like to get up and sing some other time. We'll see.

I'm preparing to head out to FREEZE for a weekend in September, and then I'll be rockin' out at Black Stump!!! I can't wait - it's gonna be great. It will be my first 'Stump - considering that I always heard about it too late, but this time I've got it sorted, so it should be all good.

Hmm. I think that that's about it for now - but I will update regularly now that I'm back at Uni, so :

TTFN -
TaTa For Now - Tinka. ^^