Have you ever just written - not thinking what you are saying, but just getting your current thoughts down on page - hold you high and steal your pain, 'coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome - and I don't feel right when you've gone... Sitting by the rain streaked window... Playing, listening to the music of loneliness... Giving into the weakness... When I'm lonesome....
Meh. You really can't do that when your listening to a song - the words in your head - your voice, is drowned out by the more powerful emotions and words that the song betrays. How can an ordinary sound be heard when it is flooded with the extrodinary?
Anyways, I think that that's enough of that - though I did get a interesting little piece (bout 300 words) done when I was given a random phrase by someone out of my Creative Writing Tutorial - which, by the way, was heaps of fun. But my 400 word microstory, plus my discussion notes have to be written in a week's time. At least it'll be over and done with then!!
Tuesday, July 26
Practising
It seems that I can never get to a point of 'good' work with either my art or writing. I guess that's the whole
"Those who are satisfied with medeocrity will always succeed, but those who are only satisfied with perfection will always fail." But as comforting as that is for my thing about always failing, it doesn't help when I can never get there. Anywhere!
It would be nice to able to look at something I've done and say - yes, that is good work. In the meanwhile, I guess it's all about practising. That's the only way you get anywhere. By working. >.> I think it makes what you acheive more worthwhile. But it's so hard to get to the point of acheivement. But that's just my opinion!
adios.
"Those who are satisfied with medeocrity will always succeed, but those who are only satisfied with perfection will always fail." But as comforting as that is for my thing about always failing, it doesn't help when I can never get there. Anywhere!
It would be nice to able to look at something I've done and say - yes, that is good work. In the meanwhile, I guess it's all about practising. That's the only way you get anywhere. By working. >.> I think it makes what you acheive more worthwhile. But it's so hard to get to the point of acheivement. But that's just my opinion!
adios.
Thursday, July 21
Inspiration
a flight of fancy
a flight of fancy takes to wing -
riding boldly on the backs of stars -
twisting, turning, it flutters through dreams -
only leaving the touch of a golden step -
a thin, fading, trail that beckons alluringly.
glistening and shimmering -
a shaft of pure immagination -
peircing through what it will -
like a lone, sun sent ray.
a wandering vision -
a golden dream -
easier it is to cage a nightingale -
than to catch the fleeting glory.
but through the translator -
the quicksilver takes form -
flowing across the snow-white plain -
showing with every twist and turn -
a facet of the changing picture.
and so the dreamers dream -
striving to follow the path -
capturing the shadow -
with it's reflection of faieries, elfs and nymphs.
lifting for a heart beat -
the veil that divides the face of reality -
from the vision of fantasy -
unicorns, dragons and magical beasts -
woven through guiding tales before.
so when elusive inspiration takes wing -
coaxing, calling to the restless below -
Come, Come tame the flight of fancy -
If you can!
we will try...
I wrote that some time ago - but when I was in my first Creative Writing lecture yesterday, I forgot it. There's nothing like sitting down in a room full of eager, talented writers (or musicians, or what have you) to make you feel insiginificant - that maybe you're not good enough after all. I am definately feeling a sense of inadequat, unoriginality. It's not like anyone thinks I'm a good writer or anything. Far from it. It's just what I do. Give me a blank peice of paper and a pen, and I draw. Give me a beautiful senery and I write. Kind of messed up - I know. It's not that I can't live without writing either. I don't know. As I said before - I guess it's just something I do. *sigh* There really is nothing I do that is spectacular in any way, shape or form. I write, I draw, I sing and sometimes dance. I horseride and do gymnastics. I am a student who likes to learn. BIG whoop. As you maybe able to tell - I have a great sense of ordinary-ness about myself and I hate it.
please spare a thought for me -
above all i'd rather be -
only born of originality......
That's almost a prayer for me. Yet it's further from my ways than - than - than smoking and drinking coffee is!!! (Yes, I don't smoke and I despise coffee - the taste anyways)
Meh. Stuck in a rut with no way out. I'm going to stop now before I start weeping.
Distantly yours,
TinkaBell.
a flight of fancy takes to wing -
riding boldly on the backs of stars -
twisting, turning, it flutters through dreams -
only leaving the touch of a golden step -
a thin, fading, trail that beckons alluringly.
glistening and shimmering -
a shaft of pure immagination -
peircing through what it will -
like a lone, sun sent ray.
a wandering vision -
a golden dream -
easier it is to cage a nightingale -
than to catch the fleeting glory.
but through the translator -
the quicksilver takes form -
flowing across the snow-white plain -
showing with every twist and turn -
a facet of the changing picture.
and so the dreamers dream -
striving to follow the path -
capturing the shadow -
with it's reflection of faieries, elfs and nymphs.
lifting for a heart beat -
the veil that divides the face of reality -
from the vision of fantasy -
unicorns, dragons and magical beasts -
woven through guiding tales before.
so when elusive inspiration takes wing -
coaxing, calling to the restless below -
Come, Come tame the flight of fancy -
If you can!
we will try...
I wrote that some time ago - but when I was in my first Creative Writing lecture yesterday, I forgot it. There's nothing like sitting down in a room full of eager, talented writers (or musicians, or what have you) to make you feel insiginificant - that maybe you're not good enough after all. I am definately feeling a sense of inadequat, unoriginality. It's not like anyone thinks I'm a good writer or anything. Far from it. It's just what I do. Give me a blank peice of paper and a pen, and I draw. Give me a beautiful senery and I write. Kind of messed up - I know. It's not that I can't live without writing either. I don't know. As I said before - I guess it's just something I do. *sigh* There really is nothing I do that is spectacular in any way, shape or form. I write, I draw, I sing and sometimes dance. I horseride and do gymnastics. I am a student who likes to learn. BIG whoop. As you maybe able to tell - I have a great sense of ordinary-ness about myself and I hate it.
please spare a thought for me -
above all i'd rather be -
only born of originality......
That's almost a prayer for me. Yet it's further from my ways than - than - than smoking and drinking coffee is!!! (Yes, I don't smoke and I despise coffee - the taste anyways)
Meh. Stuck in a rut with no way out. I'm going to stop now before I start weeping.
Distantly yours,
TinkaBell.
Wednesday, July 20
-_-'
Okay - I would love to say that the reason for my not updating my Blog over the last month and a half is that I was in the heart of darkest Peru and I don't have a wireless laptop. And because darkest Peru hasn't got a very good connection and I was too busy fighting Anacondas anywas, I couldn't update. -_-' But that would be lying. For the truth is that while I've had my Uni holidays I've been extremely lazy, and not done a thing. I was going to practice my art - hand drawn and computer drawn, and write a few songs and stuff these hols, I didn't do any of that at all.... I did seem to drive around a lot for my parents, doing various chores, but other then that I just watched a lot of T.V. Which is really unproductive, but meh.
I really do do a lot more stuff when I've got a regular schedule, and there's lots of stuff to be done. So for that reason I'm actually quite happy to be back at Uni. And also, I am totally get over the brain turning into mush thing. This semester I'm doing Creative Writing 2, (which I'm really looking forwards to as I get to create my own portfolio!!), Laws of Communications, (sounds a bit boring, but anyways), and Communication Traditions. Sweet dude, totally sweet.
Uh... I know there's more stuff to be caught up on...
Right - S.o.L. has been scuttled before it even began. I only had two other people interested in joining up, and they were both guitarist - which isn't bad, but it wasn't working unfortunately.
I've started my adult gymnastics classes again (I stopped when I got broke) and have been pleasantly surprised with strength of my muscle memory - aka- I can do the stuff I used too, O.O - but I have noticed that my general muscular strength has been wayyyyy depleted - along with flexibility.
There's been lots of dramas over the last month - I've had to learn a lot of painful lessons, and sometimes I ask myself why God has to teach me all this stuff all at once? Why do I have to be smashed - why couldn't I just get pulled apart bit by bit??? But then again, that might be even more painful! My bestie also has had a bit of a drama concerning boys, but what else is new?? Boys are such trouble. The good news is she's pulled through, and they're just friends. For now.
Me and my sister got up recently at an open mike night - no preparation, and no backing, and sung 'The Water Buffalo Song' - the Veggie Rocks version, and it was fun!! Mind you, I don't think I'll be doing it again like that - but I would like to get up and sing some other time. We'll see.
I'm preparing to head out to FREEZE for a weekend in September, and then I'll be rockin' out at Black Stump!!! I can't wait - it's gonna be great. It will be my first 'Stump - considering that I always heard about it too late, but this time I've got it sorted, so it should be all good.
Hmm. I think that that's about it for now - but I will update regularly now that I'm back at Uni, so :
TTFN -
TaTa For Now - Tinka. ^^
I really do do a lot more stuff when I've got a regular schedule, and there's lots of stuff to be done. So for that reason I'm actually quite happy to be back at Uni. And also, I am totally get over the brain turning into mush thing. This semester I'm doing Creative Writing 2, (which I'm really looking forwards to as I get to create my own portfolio!!), Laws of Communications, (sounds a bit boring, but anyways), and Communication Traditions. Sweet dude, totally sweet.
Uh... I know there's more stuff to be caught up on...
Right - S.o.L. has been scuttled before it even began. I only had two other people interested in joining up, and they were both guitarist - which isn't bad, but it wasn't working unfortunately.
I've started my adult gymnastics classes again (I stopped when I got broke) and have been pleasantly surprised with strength of my muscle memory - aka- I can do the stuff I used too, O.O - but I have noticed that my general muscular strength has been wayyyyy depleted - along with flexibility.
There's been lots of dramas over the last month - I've had to learn a lot of painful lessons, and sometimes I ask myself why God has to teach me all this stuff all at once? Why do I have to be smashed - why couldn't I just get pulled apart bit by bit??? But then again, that might be even more painful! My bestie also has had a bit of a drama concerning boys, but what else is new?? Boys are such trouble. The good news is she's pulled through, and they're just friends. For now.
Me and my sister got up recently at an open mike night - no preparation, and no backing, and sung 'The Water Buffalo Song' - the Veggie Rocks version, and it was fun!! Mind you, I don't think I'll be doing it again like that - but I would like to get up and sing some other time. We'll see.
I'm preparing to head out to FREEZE for a weekend in September, and then I'll be rockin' out at Black Stump!!! I can't wait - it's gonna be great. It will be my first 'Stump - considering that I always heard about it too late, but this time I've got it sorted, so it should be all good.
Hmm. I think that that's about it for now - but I will update regularly now that I'm back at Uni, so :
TTFN -
TaTa For Now - Tinka. ^^
Wednesday, June 15
Finding Stuff
I'm finding stuff out. I'm finding that I'm glad to be single - I don't have to worry about someone else's heart - just my own. I'm finding that I love hanging out a lot - but I don't like getting lost. I'm finding out that my art is coming along quite nicely, especially now that I've found new ways to shade. I'm also finding that there is more good music out there that I ever imagined and I don't think I can compete with it all! I'm finding that I'm growing up, but not growing any wiser or in descernment - (O Lord, please help me!) I'm finding that I still follow my feelings too much. I'm finding that I make mistakes - a LOT of mistakes. I'm finding that holidays are boring if you don't do anything while you're doing nothing. I'm finding that I can make new friends. I'm finding that maybe I'm not such a freak after all. I'm finding that God is absolutely, without a doubt, the bestest. I'm finding the rain is wonderful, as well as wonderfully cold. I'm finding that I'm just me. The way I am. I'm finding life!!! ^ ^
Saturday, June 11
My Web Page
MY WEB PAGE - yes, it's linked for you.
So there you go. I finally could be bothered and built myself a web page. It's got all the links I like and the sites I frequent - just in case anyone would be *gasp shock horror* interested!!!!!! : I Heh - I'm actually getting the hang of HTML code too ( O.o' ). It's lotsa fun!!! ^^
Speaking (or writing) of fun, I had a great time shopping with my bestie this arvo.; even though I didn't have any money, heck - I figured out you don't need money when you can spend your friend's money on her!! >.< AND my other bestie came up from Jindabyne and stayed the night as she was on her way to Sydney. Lots of cool bonding time. 'Neways, gotta go get ready for more shopping.... O ya - a new cool site I found yesterday!
Lyrics on Demand
It's so awesome - I found lyrics I'd been wanting for millions of songs! So if you wanna know the rest of that-song-that-you-only-know-one-line-of-that's-tormenting-you-by-playing-
in-your-head-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and
-over-and-over-and-over-and -------------- (ect.)
Well, you get the picture. Check it out!
Off to shop 'til she drops - Boni. ^^
So there you go. I finally could be bothered and built myself a web page. It's got all the links I like and the sites I frequent - just in case anyone would be *gasp shock horror* interested!!!!!! : I Heh - I'm actually getting the hang of HTML code too ( O.o' ). It's lotsa fun!!! ^^
Speaking (or writing) of fun, I had a great time shopping with my bestie this arvo.; even though I didn't have any money, heck - I figured out you don't need money when you can spend your friend's money on her!! >.< AND my other bestie came up from Jindabyne and stayed the night as she was on her way to Sydney. Lots of cool bonding time. 'Neways, gotta go get ready for more shopping.... O ya - a new cool site I found yesterday!
Lyrics on Demand
It's so awesome - I found lyrics I'd been wanting for millions of songs! So if you wanna know the rest of that-song-that-you-only-know-one-line-of-that's-tormenting-you-by-playing-
in-your-head-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and
-over-and-over-and-over-and -------------- (ect.)
Well, you get the picture. Check it out!
Off to shop 'til she drops - Boni. ^^
Wednesday, June 8
Slowness
Meh - it's time to gripe about how sucky it is that my band is taking FOREVER to get off the gound...
I just want to get started, but I'm starting to think that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I figured out last night that the reasons I wanted to start this whole thing - maybe they weren't the right ones. But it's changed. I really want this band to work - like the passion I feel about good literature for teens. I'm starting to think the same way about music. It's such a vital part of life for so many, but so often it's just not ... Meh - not right anyway.
Music should provoke thought, make people examine their lives - or at the very least, reflect on our awesome God. I'm not saying that you can't have your fun songs, or dance songs, or any of that. Just that there should be good stuff as well as the usual. Of course, this is just my opinion, and many may not agree with me. But that, I feel, should be the goal of Shades of Light. To create thought provoking, mindful music. Mind you, when it's put like that it sounds sooooo stuffed shirt-y. The music won't be though - I love to rock too much for that to happen!!! ^ ^
Drop the bass line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rock on the Rock - Tink_A. :)
I just want to get started, but I'm starting to think that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I figured out last night that the reasons I wanted to start this whole thing - maybe they weren't the right ones. But it's changed. I really want this band to work - like the passion I feel about good literature for teens. I'm starting to think the same way about music. It's such a vital part of life for so many, but so often it's just not ... Meh - not right anyway.
Music should provoke thought, make people examine their lives - or at the very least, reflect on our awesome God. I'm not saying that you can't have your fun songs, or dance songs, or any of that. Just that there should be good stuff as well as the usual. Of course, this is just my opinion, and many may not agree with me. But that, I feel, should be the goal of Shades of Light. To create thought provoking, mindful music. Mind you, when it's put like that it sounds sooooo stuffed shirt-y. The music won't be though - I love to rock too much for that to happen!!! ^ ^
Drop the bass line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Rock on the Rock - Tink_A. :)
Sunday, June 5
That Feeling....
Do you ever get that feeling where you are waiting for something - anything - to happen? Usually when you do, you go make some plans to do something. You wait for an hour, maybe two, for your friends to get back to you and then your friends text back and go "Oh sorry I actually can't do anything today." or whatever. How much of a let down is that!!! So annoying... Especially when that stupid expectancy won't leave you alone then.
Meh. Anyways, I'm posting up something I drew last night - it's not all there, 'coz my scanner isn't big enough, but I hope you can get the drift. I'll put it in my art gallery 'coz i can't get it up.
Meh. Anyways, I'm posting up something I drew last night - it's not all there, 'coz my scanner isn't big enough, but I hope you can get the drift. I'll put it in my art gallery 'coz i can't get it up.
Saturday, June 4
La-li-la!
I'sa been at work alllllll day - well not quite, from 10:30 'til 3:15 and my feet HURT!!! But I'm happy now, 'coz I heard my newst favourite song - 'Don't phunk with my heart' by The Blackeyed Peas on the way home - an' wheee! It's all good.
Everytime I think about him - I banish him from my mind. I think it's working, except now he's escaping and starting to haunt my dreams. It hurts. But I've gotta push through this. *sigh*
"I'm blue - dee-dee-di-dum-dee-dee-di-dum... Inside and outside..."
La-la *sings along to I'm Blue* I luff singing and music - it always makes me feel better.
Happi-er now,
Yours, TinkaBell. ^^
Everytime I think about him - I banish him from my mind. I think it's working, except now he's escaping and starting to haunt my dreams. It hurts. But I've gotta push through this. *sigh*
"I'm blue - dee-dee-di-dum-dee-dee-di-dum... Inside and outside..."
La-la *sings along to I'm Blue* I luff singing and music - it always makes me feel better.
Happi-er now,
Yours, TinkaBell. ^^
Friday, June 3
Everything old is new again...
I can't believe it's another month, yet here we go again! I wonder what will come? Proably a re-run of everything old so it's new again. What with boy troubles - meh: I'm soooo over all the annoy-ing-ness, seriously! - work, Uni, friends, and all that jazz, it's nothing new, yet I'm sure it will seem that it is when it comes around. ;_; *sniff* Dunno why that makes me want to cry, but it does. Maybe I'm just in a crying mood...
*bounces* But not for long. I've found a new group of friends that have welcomed me most nicely and it's been great times hanging out with the them, that I hope will continue. And I'm finally (sort of) getting my car. Mum and Dad are buying a new car and I'm getting Dad's old work one - a Nissian Bluebird SSS. Cool huh? No, it's not new, in fact it's ten years old, but it's a 4 cylinder and I think (*_8) it rocks! It's much nicer than anything I would've been able to afford anyway. 'Course, Dad hasn't really given me the car, but I get first dibs, and I won't have to ask to take it out. Which totally rocks.
Heh - great times. Although I'm still breakin' my heart, I've choosen to get over him, and that's that. Choose your love and love your choice. That's what I'm living by right now. Meh. And I'll make it, I know I will. With God's help I can do anything!!!!!!
So I'm off for now, gotta try and sell our old VW so's my sister and me can re-do our bedroom in Dad's office,
Bye.
*bounces* But not for long. I've found a new group of friends that have welcomed me most nicely and it's been great times hanging out with the them, that I hope will continue. And I'm finally (sort of) getting my car. Mum and Dad are buying a new car and I'm getting Dad's old work one - a Nissian Bluebird SSS. Cool huh? No, it's not new, in fact it's ten years old, but it's a 4 cylinder and I think (*_8) it rocks! It's much nicer than anything I would've been able to afford anyway. 'Course, Dad hasn't really given me the car, but I get first dibs, and I won't have to ask to take it out. Which totally rocks.
Heh - great times. Although I'm still breakin' my heart, I've choosen to get over him, and that's that. Choose your love and love your choice. That's what I'm living by right now. Meh. And I'll make it, I know I will. With God's help I can do anything!!!!!!
So I'm off for now, gotta try and sell our old VW so's my sister and me can re-do our bedroom in Dad's office,
Bye.
Wednesday, June 1
Dropping off the radar
Sorry to anyone who's interested about the lack of up-dates. I just happen to be going through a really stressful time right now.
What with the low of exams - Thank the Lord they're over - the high of going out with my friends, the low of finally admitting to myself that I HAVE to stop liking the guy I like, and the high of holidays - I've just been up and down on an emotional rollacoaster all week!!! O.* '
It's killed me I must admit. I am soooo tired. I just want for everything to go away, to settle down in a cottage with a nice RIDEABLE horse just out side and a beach on my front doorstep. Meh, I wish.....
*sigh*
Anyway, I'm sure things will start to look up soon. Though SoL hasn't got off the ground as of yet, and that's kind of being messed up. Never mind. Things will change, and in the mean time, the Lord is with me.
Adios, Tink.
What with the low of exams - Thank the Lord they're over - the high of going out with my friends, the low of finally admitting to myself that I HAVE to stop liking the guy I like, and the high of holidays - I've just been up and down on an emotional rollacoaster all week!!! O.* '
It's killed me I must admit. I am soooo tired. I just want for everything to go away, to settle down in a cottage with a nice RIDEABLE horse just out side and a beach on my front doorstep. Meh, I wish.....
*sigh*
Anyway, I'm sure things will start to look up soon. Though SoL hasn't got off the ground as of yet, and that's kind of being messed up. Never mind. Things will change, and in the mean time, the Lord is with me.
Adios, Tink.
Tuesday, May 17
---- Silence ----
Heheh. Can't think straight - I'm sooo starting to get really nervous. These exams are going to kill me!!! Gah. Gotta stop being so negative about them. *takes a deep breath* No, I'll be fine. It's going to be okay.
I'm going to a part-A, I'm going to a part-AAA!!!!! Yey! This weekend (yes - the weekend before exams) is my bestest friend's 18th birthday party. It's gonna be great fun!
But right now, I don't feel like celebrating for some reason. I'm in a silent mood I guess. I'm not really sure of the characteristics of a silent mood - besides the silence (DUH), but it's definately a grey mood. Hmm. Dunno why though. It's not the exams, and it's not financial troubles, or lack of socialness. It's not because things are bad - God has been extremely good to me and my family. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do. *whaaa* I need a hug!!! :'(
*sighs* owell, back to life. At least I don't have to stand on my own - I know that He is with me, and that's better than anything.
Down in the grey for now,
Tinka.
I'm going to a part-A, I'm going to a part-AAA!!!!! Yey! This weekend (yes - the weekend before exams) is my bestest friend's 18th birthday party. It's gonna be great fun!
But right now, I don't feel like celebrating for some reason. I'm in a silent mood I guess. I'm not really sure of the characteristics of a silent mood - besides the silence (DUH), but it's definately a grey mood. Hmm. Dunno why though. It's not the exams, and it's not financial troubles, or lack of socialness. It's not because things are bad - God has been extremely good to me and my family. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do. *whaaa* I need a hug!!! :'(
*sighs* owell, back to life. At least I don't have to stand on my own - I know that He is with me, and that's better than anything.
Down in the grey for now,
Tinka.
Monday, May 16
Perfect
"It's got to be - ooohohyeah - per_fect. It's got to be - ooohohhhoyeah - peeeerrrrrr _FECT!"
The last week has been the topest week ever! Super-duper busy, but still tops. It all started Saturday night, when I went to the UBD gig, then hung out with my friends til 2:00am. Then on Sunday I had a great day at my new work, Hill Station, then my Dad AND Mum both got new jobs as well, (THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU LORD!) then I got that Report done, then I went to my friend's 20th after painting him his Birthday present ( picture which I think he liked ) and then I hung out with my friends again, then I went to work on Friday night, which was good, and THEN on Saturday I had a sleepover with my sister, and her friend which was really fun, and today's been really good and everything is just better then PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!
*happy sigh* I think I'm am finally moving off that crush as well, even though I totally got it back last weekend, but now I hope I'm able to move on. But that's really good. Only have to survive my exams - and squeeeeeeee! I'm just loving life! Time for bed now though,
Kisses an' Huggles,
TinkaBell ~_^
The last week has been the topest week ever! Super-duper busy, but still tops. It all started Saturday night, when I went to the UBD gig, then hung out with my friends til 2:00am. Then on Sunday I had a great day at my new work, Hill Station, then my Dad AND Mum both got new jobs as well, (THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU LORD!) then I got that Report done, then I went to my friend's 20th after painting him his Birthday present ( picture which I think he liked ) and then I hung out with my friends again, then I went to work on Friday night, which was good, and THEN on Saturday I had a sleepover with my sister, and her friend which was really fun, and today's been really good and everything is just better then PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!
*happy sigh* I think I'm am finally moving off that crush as well, even though I totally got it back last weekend, but now I hope I'm able to move on. But that's really good. Only have to survive my exams - and squeeeeeeee! I'm just loving life! Time for bed now though,
Kisses an' Huggles,
TinkaBell ~_^
Tuesday, May 10
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT
I have had the BESTTTT weekend - got to go to a Use By Date concert Saturday night, got a new job, which is turning out to be super-fantastic, had soooo much fun with my friends Saturday night - Wheeee! I'm so happy! Thankyou Lord for being the bestest!
Mind you, I'm also happily tiredddd. Stayed up 'til 2:00 am Sat., and couldn't go to sleep 'til 12:00 am last night. I can hardly keep my eyes open. And I still haven't finished that @#)#$$ report that's due this Wednesday first thing, and I have to work tomorrow at 11:00 am to about 3:00 - 4:00, maybe later... And biggest narky thing of all - my exams are in two weeks time, including this week. --- *sigh* ---
But once all that is over, life'll be really sweet for a while. I'm getting my car (FINALLY) soon, and with the cash flow, and friends, and SoL, it's gonna be pretty awesome. Just gotta get through these last two weeks. Please Lord, give me strength.
Yours half happy, a quarter tired and a quarter scared,
Tinka.
Mind you, I'm also happily tiredddd. Stayed up 'til 2:00 am Sat., and couldn't go to sleep 'til 12:00 am last night. I can hardly keep my eyes open. And I still haven't finished that @#)#$$ report that's due this Wednesday first thing, and I have to work tomorrow at 11:00 am to about 3:00 - 4:00, maybe later... And biggest narky thing of all - my exams are in two weeks time, including this week. --- *sigh* ---
But once all that is over, life'll be really sweet for a while. I'm getting my car (FINALLY) soon, and with the cash flow, and friends, and SoL, it's gonna be pretty awesome. Just gotta get through these last two weeks. Please Lord, give me strength.
Yours half happy, a quarter tired and a quarter scared,
Tinka.
Tuesday, May 3
Work - or rather procrastintation.
So much work to do and all I can do is procrastinate... I have a lot of stuff that I have to do at home, and tomorrow is my only day to do it. AND tomorrow is going to be chokers with an interview, running my sister around, and going to Tugganerong to drop in a resume and go shopping for the UBD concert. At least, my sister's going shopping - I'm just the chauffeur!
Gah. Okay, sorting stuff out... Can't do IMEC prep. here (at Uni), can do C.F. prep. and some of my Report for IMEC. Alrighty, really should be working now.... Now.... Now.... Now..... Now...... Now........................................................ >>'
Gah. Bye. T.
Gah. Okay, sorting stuff out... Can't do IMEC prep. here (at Uni), can do C.F. prep. and some of my Report for IMEC. Alrighty, really should be working now.... Now.... Now.... Now..... Now...... Now........................................................ >>'
Gah. Bye. T.
Monday, May 2
OHHH!
USE BY DATE ARE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oooohhh ye-aH!!! ^^
I can't believe I almost forgot to tell the world - Use By Date are back in business!! SQUEEEE! *.* I don't know for how long, but they're playing a gig next Saturday night, and I'm soooo stoked. (If I had my way, this font would be gittery gold, but plain gold was as close as I could get!) Man, next Saturday is going to ROOOOCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry about the double post, I just had to inform everyone of the happy, happy news!!! *bounces off singing to herself* Forever, forever, forever - Eternity!!!!
Byyyeee - Tink. ^^
I can't believe I almost forgot to tell the world - Use By Date are back in business!! SQUEEEE! *.* I don't know for how long, but they're playing a gig next Saturday night, and I'm soooo stoked. (If I had my way, this font would be gittery gold, but plain gold was as close as I could get!) Man, next Saturday is going to ROOOOCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!
Sorry about the double post, I just had to inform everyone of the happy, happy news!!! *bounces off singing to herself* Forever, forever, forever - Eternity!!!!
Byyyeee - Tink. ^^
New again
It is a new month again - gee, time flys so quickly - I hardly know where the days go. This month is exams - actually, they're in three weeks time (meep!) and I've got one report to do and that's all the major assesment then this term is over. OVER! OVER I TELL YOU! That is so scary - I could hardly imaigine going to Uni, and now, I'm almost at the end of my cross-over program.
Good stuff has been happening though - got an interveiw which I hope will work out, Rusty is being an ABSOLUTE pain, but is sloooowwwwllly coming right, I'm getting on with my graphic novel, and I will soon be free to start up my band! Sweeet Dude, totally swweeeeet! ^-^
*sigh* Thanks God for being so awesome, and helping me through life.
Gotta go, T.
Good stuff has been happening though - got an interveiw which I hope will work out, Rusty is being an ABSOLUTE pain, but is sloooowwwwllly coming right, I'm getting on with my graphic novel, and I will soon be free to start up my band! Sweeet Dude, totally swweeeeet! ^-^
*sigh* Thanks God for being so awesome, and helping me through life.
Gotta go, T.
Sunday, May 1
SupA chic
Dear Diary,
I met this guy at a show,
He was singing to me - at least I think so...
Ha. Take off Super [Chick] , I know - but so true. That's how I fell over into a huge crush for... Well, a huge crush on my crush. (Sooo not mentioning any names - you never know who might read this!!!)
I'm still not over him, even after months of mix-ups, not speaking to each other, only MSNing, living (or DIEING) through another girl.... Whaaaa!!!! That still hurts! No, he didn't get her, but he told me alll about it! >< *sigh* and telling him off, ever so slightly, then him being nice to me - *shock*, instead of ignoring my exsistance..... Yeah, I know. I'm so pathetic, yearning after a boy who barely knows me, let alone cares for me. Yet, as much as I would, I can not steal my heart back.
Anyway, enough of pathetic girlyness, - hmmmm, that's so weird. I was just reading over wht I had written, and I think I realise the problem. He is just a boy. So far, not that I can really judge, 'coz he won't communicate with me the important stuff (like the thoughts in his head), he is just a boy. Not a man. ................................
Whoa. That's really big. I guess I would also describe myself - through a guy's eyes, as just a girl too. And maybe that's everything. How can a boy really commit to anything, and how can a boy protect my heart? And how can I, as a girl, be the woman he needs to stand at his side - to give him what he needs. .......................
I've just has a major revelation. What I'm looking for the man I need. Not to live - for all I need for that is God, but just to not be lonely, to have someone who shares how I work, think, what makes me me, and delights in that on this Earth. And for that I need a man. Not a boy. Maybe I should be gald that my crush doesn't notice me. For if he proved to be the man I need, would I prove to be the woman he needs? O. That's a gigantious thought.
At the moment, however, I don't think the guy I like is a man. I don't know for sure, I don't know him all that well, for he won't let me know him well. But in any case, from what I can tell, what he's said to me, he still just a boy - wanting to have fun, and not caring how he gets it.
That's sad. I wish it weren't that way, but it is. What will be, will be.
All in the Lord's timing,
TinkaBell.
I met this guy at a show,
He was singing to me - at least I think so...
Ha. Take off Super [Chick] , I know - but so true. That's how I fell over into a huge crush for... Well, a huge crush on my crush. (Sooo not mentioning any names - you never know who might read this!!!)
I'm still not over him, even after months of mix-ups, not speaking to each other, only MSNing, living (or DIEING) through another girl.... Whaaaa!!!! That still hurts! No, he didn't get her, but he told me alll about it! >< *sigh* and telling him off, ever so slightly, then him being nice to me - *shock*, instead of ignoring my exsistance..... Yeah, I know. I'm so pathetic, yearning after a boy who barely knows me, let alone cares for me. Yet, as much as I would, I can not steal my heart back.
Anyway, enough of pathetic girlyness, - hmmmm, that's so weird. I was just reading over wht I had written, and I think I realise the problem. He is just a boy. So far, not that I can really judge, 'coz he won't communicate with me the important stuff (like the thoughts in his head), he is just a boy. Not a man. ................................
Whoa. That's really big. I guess I would also describe myself - through a guy's eyes, as just a girl too. And maybe that's everything. How can a boy really commit to anything, and how can a boy protect my heart? And how can I, as a girl, be the woman he needs to stand at his side - to give him what he needs. .......................
I've just has a major revelation. What I'm looking for the man I need. Not to live - for all I need for that is God, but just to not be lonely, to have someone who shares how I work, think, what makes me me, and delights in that on this Earth. And for that I need a man. Not a boy. Maybe I should be gald that my crush doesn't notice me. For if he proved to be the man I need, would I prove to be the woman he needs? O. That's a gigantious thought.
At the moment, however, I don't think the guy I like is a man. I don't know for sure, I don't know him all that well, for he won't let me know him well. But in any case, from what I can tell, what he's said to me, he still just a boy - wanting to have fun, and not caring how he gets it.
That's sad. I wish it weren't that way, but it is. What will be, will be.
All in the Lord's timing,
TinkaBell.
Tuesday, April 26
-_-
Wheee!!! Had my best friend sleep over last night - we got sleep at a decent time (1:00 am) but still slept in 'til 11:30... *blink* I don't know why I'm tired. Maybe (most proably!) it's the thought of Uni tomorrow. Yuck... Owell.
Haven't gotten very far with ah - I forgot the name... I think I also lost the notebook where I put the idea down in as well. Rats. I really am gonna have to find it, or I won't get my graphic novel done at all.
*zzz* Gotta go now,
T.
Haven't gotten very far with ah - I forgot the name... I think I also lost the notebook where I put the idea down in as well. Rats. I really am gonna have to find it, or I won't get my graphic novel done at all.
*zzz* Gotta go now,
T.
Friday, April 22
Oekaki sweet-i_ness!!! ^^
WoooT!!! I founded the bestest thing eva!!! It's called an Oekaki Board, and basicly it's a place on the 'Net where you can go and draw really prettttyyyy (uwahhh! >.<) pictures. It's got the same sort of set up as a basic photoshop shop deal - so it's realllyyyy uber-ly awesome. The one I draw on ('coz there's heaps you can choose from) is Oekaki Central - here's the link.
http://www.oekakicentral.com
Hope any other loving to draw peoples enjoy this cool way to improve and show off your art as much as mesa. 'Neways, gotta go an' draw a pretty piccy - Byee!!! T.
http://www.oekakicentral.com
Hope any other loving to draw peoples enjoy this cool way to improve and show off your art as much as mesa. 'Neways, gotta go an' draw a pretty piccy - Byee!!! T.
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