*Jaw drops* AHHHHHHH!!!!! O.O

I HAVE TO SCREAM THIS OUT LOUD BECAUSE IT IS THE CRAZIEST THING EVER!!!!!!!!!!

*takes deep breath*

I have fallen in love for the first time...


With a computer program..................................... -_-;

Let me explain - for the artists out there that are limited by a tight budget (like me! >= P) - I might just have the right drop for you!

THE GIMP It's a free, (*gasp*) downloadable program that you can use instead of Adobe Photoshop/Illustrator. I don't know if it's as good as a Adobe, but according to my IT friend it is. And he should know. But anyway, that's besides the point...

Because the real point here is that there is a FREE program that you can download to help with your Graphic Art if you can't afford the real deal.

And that's why I'm in love!!!!!!!!!!!! I HEART THE GIMP! :

Google THE GIMP - and voila!!! You're on your way to better art already!

*happy sigh*

Really, truely, the Gimp is the best thing I have discovered (art-wise) so far. I literally was having a coniption* yesterday while I was testing it out. It was - gah - just can't discribe it...

And yeah. So I am insanely happy (isn't it the only way to be?) at the moment.

Lol.

See ya! Tinkabell ^^

*Coniption. verb (con-nip-shon)

1. Bouncing madly around while making little squee's of
excitement
2. Having a heart attack while stressing FAR to much about
something

noun

1. Wildly, insanely, literally off-your-rocker with excitement
2. Stressed out beyond stupidity

P.S. - Yes, the word coniption was made up between The Fluffy Kitties - my
sisters and I. ^^ (C) 2006.

Well.

Life is stuff, stuff is life. My deep, one second thought for the day. ^^; So anyways...

How long does it take to get to being a good artist? Like, I checked out heise's (from DeviantART) work today and tripped out... Ahhh! Too much good art work/artists out there! Sometimes I find it really hard to understand why I even bother, but the compelling whisper that floats through my mind (commenly known as inspiration) won't let me give up. Stupidness. Even when things don't go the way I want them too. : /

*Lol* It's all good. Wonder why I even bother writing about it. Not like anything's ever going to change!!!

So, anyways, I'm doing a third year subject in my second year at Uni - this is going to be fun! >.<>

Hmm - and don't you just love running into ex's? Good times...

As you can proably tell, I'm out to waste time until my tutorial for the subject I'm dropping starts, so I really have nothing to say.

All though, sometimes nothing can be far more interesting than something - depending on the topic!! Anyhoo, gotta go. Forgot to buy a textbook I need.

TTFn, Tika.



Tika.

UPDATE

Better update I guess.

Back at Uni - lots of work this semester - four units, and yeah. Lots of work at my job as well, 'coz I am flat strapped, and need a LOT of money to pay my debts!!! And Bob (my car) blew a head, so now he's offically dead unless I come up with the dough to fix him. -.-'

Life can really chuck you some corkers - some good news is that my ankles are getting better, so I can work again! (Finally!!!)

O yeah - an' how weird is it when you run into really old ex-s? I bumped into my first at my Uni bookshop, and we chatted, but it was weird. Not the whole -ahh-my-ex-gotta-be-polite sort of weird - but another kind... Hmmm. Dunno, but anyways.

That's it from me for now - have a good one!

Tika.

la-di-da-de-dum-lia-laaaa!

Uh - haven't got to much to say... Going to Merry Beach for the weekend, which'll be awesome. Then I'm going road tripping with four of my grilfriends to Batemans next week. Yay!!! Beach!!!! w00t!

oyeah - I streaked my hair purple yesterday which was fun - it looks so cool now. I'm gonna put a picture up of it in a mo. uhoh - brb...

Back! Had to go hang out the washing... -.-

ttul, b.

P.s - Rocki my dog, rolled in the left-over dye, so, now my originally all-white dog has purple side burns now! He's soo tute! ^-^!

The Best

You know how everyone always says that your teen/twenty years are the best of your life? Well, even though I'm not sure if I agree with that theory, I can see how people would say it.

I'm just lovin how at this point in my life everything just is. Nothing is really planned, or chosen, but things come up and out, stuff happens, a word is spoken - then Oooweee! We're all off on another adventure.

Not often is the adventure very big, but it's got this feeling to it - like the randomness, or maybe it's just a little bit of the way things are supposed to be, draws us all together, and wraps us up in a common glow of friendship and fun.

I can't explain it properly, but whatever it is - it does seems to be the best thing ever. I know why people believe that these adventures of youth are the best. It's just like that Nikelback song "Photograph" - the adventures have the same feeling as that song.

But then there's always another adventure waiting around the corner. It may not feel the same as the ones before, but it'll be different and good in it's own way. I reckon life can be an adventure all the way through - if you just let it be. It's all your own choice, so while I'm gonna enjoy all that is happening now - I'm not going to mourn when it changes. Life is too full to keep looking back.

Hmm. Quite the philosopher's muse eh? Funny how things like that just randomly break into my brain! lol. Ohweell, I have been enjoying my holidays much more than ever before. So I guess that's some kind of excuse... >.>'

And besides, all too soon my Blog will be filled with "aaahs" and "got an assignment - gotta go" and every other thing that comes with being a Uni student.

Even so, can't stop lovin' God and lovin' life, it's sooo good. Speaking of ssooo good - I'm dying to get back to gymnastics, I've been missing it something cronic (stupid ankles.. >.<), I'm proably sooo out of shape. O- almost forgot - gotta ring bout getting that beach house... whhee! Love the beach!

mm.. Neyways, proably should finish this extra-ordinary-rily long post, and put you all out of your misery! X D!

ttfn, tinka.

yawn - ^0^

Sleepiness... Luv the late nights - can't stand early mornings, and not being able to keep my eyes open. That suxz. Hardcore.

Went to the National Gallery yesterday arvo. - it was heaps cool. I loved checking out some of the insane stuff they had there. Most of it didn't cut it for me - but some of the stuff... Dude. It was so cool.
Had to hop around on my crutches though which wasn't cool...

Speaking of which, it looks like I might getting off them this weekend - yes!

Btw, how sad is it - only one more month of holidays and summer... WHAAA! =''( Must do lottsssss of beach trips - can't stand winter. Well, actually I can...

But has anyone else noticed how people hook up so much in the colder months? A guy I worked with before had this theory that it's more fun/comfortable to snuggle up with your bf/gf in winter - which is why all these couple start popping up everywhere! Mind you, I think it's much better just to curl up with a book, a mug of hot chocolate, and a nice fire. Mmm. Much better!

Must say though, I'm so hoping I'll be able to make it to the snow this winter at least once. I'm so hanging out for boarding. Mind you - I can't actually snowboard, but I can iceskate, and rollerblade and I have done a teeeny, wincy bit of skateborading, so I hope all the above will help get the hang of it. *fingers crossed* 'Coz I'm not sure that I have much of a chance. Lol. ohwell.

Mph - in the mean time it's still 30+ outside, so let's not get depressed about the cold too soon!

^-^, check y'all l8r - can't think of much else to write.

bye! B.

*talking with my bestie*

Soo here I am talking with my best friend while she's checkin out my blog - cool huh?

C u - ^^,
T.B.

Owie!

*whimpers* I went and did it again.... "-and the award for biggest chump of 2006 goes to.... Me!!!" I've only just started to get over my severly sprained left ankle when I had to - yep, you've proably guess it - go twist my right ankle! WHAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ='''(

I was climbing up a hill/mountain? in the bush - me and one of the Hobbits (we'll call him Pippin) were going up to Booromba(?) Rocks and having a grand ol' sweaty time when I had to step on a rock that wasn't a rock (ie - the grass made it look like a rock was underneath, but it wasn't and..) - vol`a! I have a really sore ankle, am stuck at home, can't go out with the Hobbits any more, and can't work either, so I'm dead broke, bored(well, 'cept for the computer....), and *sigh* that's the way the cookie crumbles. Mind you, my ankle wouldn't have been as bad as it is if I had of been smart and asked to head back when I twisted it. As it was, I had to trek 7 kilometers on it - it didn't start hurting until we'd already reached the top of the hill/mountain.

Tell you what, getting back - now that was a challenge.... I had to dig my nails into the palm of my hands so that I could stand the pain in my ankle. The only way I got down was with more pain, walking really fast, and ignoring the achiness. That's the problem about stubborn, independant types- can't sook or whinge about any thing.... >.>....

Hmmm - besides my eventful day, I can't think of much else - o, went to the Australia Day Eve Concert on the lawn of Paraliment - got to see(? too many people to actually see them)/hear the Rogue Traders and The Modern Day Poets, and some others, but I enjoyed the company (The Hobbits + one) more than the bands - tho the latter bands were HEAPS good - loved dancing to the music!

'Neways, that is it from me for now...

Smilies - T.

Once upon a time...

There were six Hobbits. These Hobbits didn't know each other just three weeks ago - they each were living their seperate lives. Than BAM! A big cog slipped and the order of things changed. Now these Hobbits are living their lives together!!!

My sister and I have been having a ball over the last two weeks or so, we've found a group of friends that we can hang out with - and are hanging out with constantly. It's reeallly cool. Dunno if it'll last, but for the moment, we're having heaps of fun, so I've determined just to enjoy it for what it is - Awesome!!!! ^ ^!

Beach trips - (which BTW, was really awesome.), swimming, movies, dancing (yes! Ballroom dancing! I learnt the Cha-Cha basic, the Waltz basic, and Salsa basic, and some extra steps as well! >.), cheese&crackers, pizza, and cookiesncream icecream, and a new game - "If you were". It goes like this - you ask the group - if you were a -insert object/thing- what would you be? Like: If you were a peice of furniture/superhero/fruit/color/car what would you be? So the game just goes on and on and on, and it never ends!!! Tis very cool.


So that's 'bout it from me for now.

Adios amigos,

Tinka


P.S. - Our bedroom is finally done - and that was also the reason why I haven't been on the Net for ages - the connection took forever to get back up!

P.S. II - Have a Happy Australia Day! ^-^

*massive silence*

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!!!!!!
I can't believe it - but... I'm getting a Graphic Tablet today! *happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy* I can hear a sort of "Wha?" sound going 'round - for those that don't know - Google Search it! Heheee. Naw, it's just something that's gonna help me heaps with my graphic art. Somethings about art need practise, others, tools. I'm finally starting to get together the stuff I need. It's heaps cool! 'Specially as Graphic Tablets are at least $1,000.00 or over, and as I found this one for a good deal less than that new, I'm extra-happyyyyy! *bounces 'round* Squee! <3 <--- (I know it's kinda demented, but that's supposed to be a sideways heart.) Byeee! TinkaBell ^^!

Hot and hotter

Hehee - bad 'gramma', I know, but it is realllyyyyy hot down under here in Canberra. Of course, even though we're in the city, bushfires are the ever looming concern - but right now everyone seems to be freaking out about something else - or somethingS. Namely sharks... Now I'm supposed to be going to the coast for a day trip this Sunday - but my family's totally bugging out over the report of 100 shark sightings along the South Coast these past three weekends. O.O' And they've been coming in to the third swell, which is like one meter deep! And I'm supposed to be swimming? So yeah!!!

I'm personally not too fussed - I know you've gotta be careful, but if you're not living on the edge, you're taking up to much space! Or maybe you'll spend your life wraped in cotton wool. No thankyou. But I guess we'll see. Although I'm still planning on swimming, I am glad there's gonna be 'copter patrols over Bateman's Bay this weekend. Makes you feel a little safer.

Asides from all that furrior(? spelling?) over sharks, I'm really phsyced (?) about heading to the coast - I've mentioned it before - but I'm dying for the beach and have been ever since the end of the Uni exams.... Gah! ><' --->

So, besides that, I don't think much else is happening. I, and another relatively new guy, were left in charge at work for like the first time, which was really awesome. Everything went really well, which was even more awesome(r)!!!! Bob needs a service, and I had to buy him a new battery, which means I can't go the WorldView conferance coming up on the 15th, but hey, you can't do everything, and there's always next year. So I'm off for now, gotta go do some chores as my sister is bellowing at me... = P'''


Adios amigos!

T.B._o

P.S. Thunderstorm coming up now - WOOOOTTTTTTTTT! I just love the thunder! Hope lighting strikes don't start a fire though...

Oyahhhh.

Wow... What a holiday!!!

'Course, it wan't much of a holiday after all that anyways. The good news is that my sister, Emi, and I are finally in our new room. It's still a bit messy, but when it's clean I'll put up some photos so you can see a little of what it's been like for the last week and a half!! 0.O!

I'm gonna have a little whinge - I HAVEN'T BEEN TO THE BEACH ONCE THIS SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! T_T Mind you, I went once when I was at BlackStump - but that was in the spring!!! So it doesn't count.... ^^'...
So I'm back at work, dealing with people who are still stuck in silly season mode. I must say, it's not always that fun. I went out for New Year's and that was cool - but not some random up-chucking all over my mate's carpet. So at 12:05pm - what was my mate doing? Cleaning up vomit. Niiiice..... NOT!

I don't get it - seriously... What's so fun about killing half of your brain cells, vomiting, making an @$$ of yourself, and feeling like SH*T the next day???? And what about the other people around you? In my expirance, getting drunk always affects someone else, and not in a good way. Like, at this wedding I was working at the other night, the groom's mates were completely off their faces, and acting like real retards. The poor bride just put up with them brawling and making @$$' out of themselves. If I was her I would've kicked them out! Mind you, I'm not against drinking, or having fun with your mates.... It's just the excesiveness. I don't get why people feel they need to go so far.
But hey - it's their life - their choices - guess they just wanna have fun.

Got lots of plans for the coast - roadtrips with the gfs, camps with Hugh's , and day trips(?) *fingers crossed!* But I guess we'll see - I've made plans before, and they've fallen through, so.... But anyway - these summer days have been really nice - the hot weather makes everyone a bit testy, but when it cools down, or we go for a swim, it's really nice. My art's on a bit of a halt, but I'll be getting back into it soon. I found a quote that's really encouraged me. "Your ability may not be much - but you're the only one in the world that can use it." So true. I've really woken up to reality lately - it almost stole my dreams away, but now I realize, even though you need reality to live, hopes and dreams are the things that make living worthwhile. Funny how things turn out. I really can't wait (heh - and I won't have to considering how quickly time flys!!!) to see what 2006 has in store - I'm sure it's gonna be one heck of a ride!

Looking to the future,

Bonita. (TinkaBell_o)

And so it begins - @_o!

*Incoming Trasmission*

*Author's Note* This diary of a young soldier was found recently in an old tumble-down attic, covered in dust and blood... It was a dark and stormy night when the gory details were revealed, and since then things have never been the same.... (Just kidding! We're renovating our house, and my sister and I are moving out into our garage, so our room is going to be totally awesome by the time we've finished. [and twice the size!] So this a brief account of the mess in my house atm.)

TOP SECERT - DO NOT READ UNLESS AUTHORIZED


day 1 _________ tuesday _ 27/12/2005


It's been a long time coming. We've been preparing for this day for six months now. We have gone through Plan A to Z and a couple of numerals too. Things have been winding up tenser and tenser, and then it happened. General Sj made the suggestion. So it was up to myself, Captain Tinka, and Luetenant CoolChic, to get the stuff we needed. At 01000 hours we marched to Revolve, and under the General's watchful eye, we brought two top secret wardrobes and a set of weapon bunk beds. This was just the beginning.

day 2 ________ wednesday _ 28/12/2005


Up at the crack of dawn - 0700 hours, it was time to let General Sj, Major Mumbly, Corpral Freaky, and Private Jayz in on the battle plan Lt CoolChic and I had concocted in the wee small hours of the night. As we had expected the was some outcry, but we were able to persude them to see reason. After the offical meeting and red tape (the General's permission) we had to sort out, the Lt and I got stuck into it. It was time to move. Everything in our headquarters got spread out all through the base, and tucked in to any corner we could find. The problems started when we realized we need materials from other areas, so more stuff (junk) had to be shifted. With all the shifting about we only ended up preping one of the top secret wardrobes, and part of the high level chest.

day 3 _________ thursday _ 29/12/2005


Time for the search to begin. Assembling the battalion in the troop 'copter, we charged out to find our super special carpet. No luck in the first base we flew into, so we raided another, and struck the mother load. Still short on supplies though, so we headed out again, but this time with a special strike team of the General, Lt and myself. We got in there and out again safely, with no incidents.

day 4 _________ friday _ 30/12/2005


It was now time for the dirty work to begin. Preping, and painting the high security gear we'd picked up took time, energy and and effort that the Lt and I almost didn't have. The heat was incrediable, and it took all our strength to keep on going. Under Mozzie-dart attacks, that swamped us from time to time, we manage to make it through with no casualties, and little damage. For now.

day 5 ________ saturday _ 31/12/2005


Waking up early, it was time to get on with the serious stuff. The painting done on a third of the gear, we have two T.S wardrobes done, and the H.L. chest finished. The two sets of W.B. beds are still to be done, plus two rocket Bookselves, a under-cover desk and two mini-mine dressing tables. Looking at what we've achieved so far, we still have a long trek ahead of us. The base is in absolute shambles - there is no way we'd be able to do our work in any sort of order, as half of the contents of the base are strewn through out the place. Dust, shrapnel, and vital equiment are mixed together in the growning mounds of gear. And we're not even half way through....




*Author's Note* The rest of the diary is lost. The search has begun for the missing parts - in due time they will be unearthed, so stay tuned.

*Transmission Complete*

T. Bird out.

I'm BACK YA'LL~

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells rock an' alll that JAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*sings loudly*

Hey everyone, hope you had a good Christmas - I know I did even though I worked all day. Busy entertaining peoples, reading books, watching my new Zoids: Chaotic Century DVDs - oya, I luff Zoids!!! ^-^ !

Things seemed to be all wacked at the mo' though - I'm busy sorting through stuff...

Heya, on to better things - the days are hot an' gorgeous, and my sister's pushing me to help with her writing - i.e. co-author with her. I thought I was past that, but I do want to help her. I just don't think that I can! I almost didn't pass my Creative Writing course. How can I call myself an author? I just don't have what it takes.

*sigh* so much for better things!!! I seriously go round in circles sometimes - and I don't mean the Kylie-Minouge-type of spinning either.

Meh - 'neways, I'm trying to deciede what movie to go see tonight (on cheap@$$ Tuesday) Mask of Zorro or Chronicles of Narnia? Hmmm.... Both are good and I shall see both, but what one tonight?
>.......< ???? *so she puzzled til her puzzler was sore* <--- Direct quote from The Grinch ^^ Good movie!

Gtg now, I'll c u l8r,

Boni.

*oophew* It's sssooo hot!!! *melts* BUYYYYEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S BEGINNING TO LOOK LIKE>>>>

CHRISTMAS!!!!

Whoo!!! I can hardly believe that another year has passed, and so much has happened over the last year... I started Uni, such a big thing for myself who had been homeschooled all my life, got a new job, that moved me up in service and learning about stuff, I've realized that I am not, and never will be a writer, but maybe if I practise real hard I can be an artist, I've learned how hard life is without Christ as your center and rock - I've been witness to the pain that troubles you through life if you don't have Him as Lord and Saviour, I've found out what it's like to be wanted, and to want in return, I know how much you depend on a friendly face, and what it means to you when you find it, when you find a friend... Life is so perfect sometimes, and sometimes it just hurts...

Each moment
passes, and it's not the amount of moments in which you breathe that matter, but the moments that make you lose your breath... I've been lucky to have some of those moments this year - Road trips with my gfs, Sleeping out under the stars on the beach, Learning new things that make me stop and wonder at the awesomeness of this world, Enjoying staying up late with friends just 'coz you can, Finding a little more of the wonder of In to me see, Golden summer days - Stormy dark nights, Music that touches your soul,
Hearing God speaking to you, Realizing that you've come so far, but more of the wonder of your journey still lies before you... Rejoice!!! Rejoice and be glad, for a Saviour is born and THAT is something to make you lose your breath.

Christmas is a time for celebration,
and reflection - may everyone see the wonder of their life behind them, and before them, May you all (to be politically correct) have a wonderful Holiday!

^-^, Best wishes always,

Bonita. (TinkaBell)

P.S. - And a Happy New Year in case I don't get on before the turn of the year!! ^ ^!

Exterary 'pecially

Did anyone notice the archive with December 1990 marked on it? I went in there today, and found three posts of "Luvin U" in it!!! What's really odd is that I only started my Blog in March 2005, so I guess Blogger.com must've had some sort of glitch. Not that I mind or anything - it's quite amusing! ^-^! *thinks* And that would explain why, when posting "Luvin U", I had to post it repeatedly, as it said that I had posted successfully, but the post wasn't on my Blog. At least, it wasn't on the December 2005 page!

Update in the life of Tinka:

I've been really sick over the last few days - I had to spend Friday in bed, and cancel my work shifts... So I'm still getting over this nasty 'flu virus, and I'm broke too! ;_; .... Really not cool, but hey that's life I guess.


ummm... ain't dot nofink else to say....

*sings* Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming.....

C u! ^^, Bj.

*D'OH!!!*

D'OOOOOOOOHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy - do I ever feel stuuuupid... =^.^= It seems like I've been having an extra batch of blonde moments this month - an' o boyous... Theysa not be vera purtyful..

First I call Dad up at 10:30 pm when I couldn't start Bob (my new car) and get him out of bed to my work to pick me up, only to find I had Bob in the wrong gear. And yep, sure 'nuff he started perfectly when I put him in park... *blushes* Stupid. I know. But hey - I topped that today!

I locked Bob's keys in his boot!! @_@' And yep, all the doors had been neatly locked by myself just a moment ago.... >.> Dad had to break in (and he scratched up my tinting... = P) so's I could get my only key back....
*groans* Oyishka.... I really have been pulling it off this month. At least the above haven't been too bad - just dumb. Hey - I haven't totally humiliated myself in front of any hotties - but don't worry - that is ssssuuuure to come!!!

So keep tuned -

C ya! T. ^-^

Amigo, Step, and me with our finished work - Boris! 

Boris, in all his rockclimbing glory... ^ ^! 

Luvin u

Just kidding!! ^-^!!! No, I really do luv u guys.... And the holidays!! I am just having the best break from Uni right now.

Hanging out w/ Step an' Amigo* (*name change - dunno if he wants to be on my Blog!!) has been fun, I've been indoor rockclimbing w/ the Crew, partying w/ the Hugh's crowd, buying a NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (more in a mo.) - working, doing a bit of art, getting hooked on boardgames, meeting heaps of new ppl - and new guys to talk too! *winkx* ; ) - heheee, it's been all good.

Ok - new car. I got it on Saturday, it's a little Ford Laser, and I call him Bob. He's in excelllent condition for a 23 year old framework, and a 4 year old motor. And I love him to bits already! He's white, and I can't wait to deck out his interior. He's got mag wheels ( ^-^! ), and I got roof racks as well - can't wait for the first road trip!! It's gonna be sweet dude - totallyyy SweeeeT!!! I'll have ta put up photos. WOOT! I finally got my first car!!! ( And I only paid $900.00 dollars for him too - SUCH a bargin!! )

Step, Amigo, and I painted Amigo's new rockclimbing wall (sorry, boldering [? spelling?] wall) today - it was sooo much fun! It took us from 10:30 ish 'til 4:00pm, with a few breaks and trips for paint and stuff we forgot, but it was SOOOOO worth it. I'lll be putting up pictures in my album Etches, as I designed the image that Step and I decided to call Borris, who is the focal point of the design, and he is this really cute geko! After that we played Monopoly Party on the PlayStation and I THRASHED everyone @$$' - only by fuke mind you - but it was fun - I sent everyone bankrupt!!! X D !!!! (meh - I'm not a n00b, it's just that I hardly ever really win boardgames, so I was happy with the change....)


*big happy sigh* = ) So luvin life right now - it's ABSO_BALLY_LUTE_LY FAN_TAS_TEEEEC!!!!!!!! I am so happy! Thankyou Lord for all you've given me.... ^-^!


*happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy*



BBBBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Boni. ^ ^

more

More pictures up in my album - Tinkas etches, on photobucket.com - check 'em out if you want - I'm also designing an artwork to transfer on to one of my friend's (he's in the Crew) new rockclimbing wall that he's getting as an early Christmas pressie. Whee! Then we're (the Crew) are gonna paint it on on Monday. Lotsa fun! ^^!

Actually, it's only the second peice of artwork that I've really ever done for someone else - (besides a few small things - like cards an' birthday pictures). I was going to do my first commissioned peice onto a guitar for a friend, but he cancelled ( = P ) - and the other piece was given as a 2oth birthday present. But then again, I'm not doing this by myself, only designing it - so can it really count as my own work?? Meh - ......

'neways, have a good one ya'll -

TinkaBell_o

P.S. - O yeah!!! I forgot to mention - I passed my exams - got two P's and a CR, so I'm pretty happy with that. Especially as my credit came from Communication Traditions, and I totally didn't get that subject at all all semester, though it seems I've manged to do something right in that class! O.O Yay!!! No more worries for the rest of the year! ^-^!!!!

*yawns*

Sooo tired!!!

I've been working really hard, an' I went out last night with a bunch of peeps from Hugh's - which was really, really, really cool! I had lotsa fun. But I am tired...

Just a question, does everyone one have a theory about the scared, scarred one? 'Coz if they do -I'd like to know it. Funny how you go through life, and things come and go - you don't even realize what's been until you look back and see the route you took. If I don't have a map for love how do I deal? I gotta guide book that helps me through life, but it doesn't tell where to wait for him... Grrrr. And right now I don't even want to be thinking about boys in any shape, sort, or form - .... Pfft. Stupid, flithy, fat creatures...

Go away and never come back!


*runs and hides in her room*

Boni.

Crusing

Life's pretty good right now - I'm enjoying the break immensely, and even though I'm working so much on the weekends I don't get to go out at all - ) ': - I'm still having a relaxing time. Am still getting over this virus thing too - though I'm starting to wonder if some of the symtoms weren't/aren't hay fever as well... Does hayfever make your glands swell? hmm. ..

Started looking at going to a new church. It's just gotten so that the life of our (my family's) church is dried out and gone. It's sad, and really hard, but we know we have to move, so we're on the look out for another place to fellowship. Currently, Hugh's Basptist is looking promising. ^^

Got a new pair of shoes today! They're black wedges with the cutest little sparkling flower where the straps meet. Nice price too - I just love a great bargin!

One thing that's got me a bit bummed is that I can't go to the beach at all 'coz I don't have anyway of getting there, and that even if I did, me and my bestie are at odds right now... Whaaaa!! We haven't had a huge fight or anything, but she's holding something back from me - doesn't wanna talk about something, and our relationship isn't as open as it has been for the last four or five years... It's so sad, and I'm really praying that everything will get sorted, 'coz it's just not cool.... Not at all.

Besides, all that, life's good. ^^

I'll check ya round,

B.

Here we goooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally!!!!!!!!! It's my first week of holidays. Even though I finished my last exam on Wednesday last week, I've been sick and it's taken this long to sink in.... I'm freeeee!!!!!!!!! WOOT!!!

Mind you I still feel really ill - but hey, at least I may have a chance of recovery as I don't have much to do until I get an extra job for the hols. I really need the cash. So it's gonna be work,work, work for this little chick-a-bee. That is, in between working on my Oekaki-ing and drawing. Meh. 'Neways, I've been sitting far to long at this computer - I can feel my eyes going square -

Adios amigo - Via le liberati!!! (My mangled French... o.o' )

Tinka.

P.s. - This is why my eyes r square!! *puts picture up on Photobucket* Check it out if you want - TinkaBell_o, then go to Tinkas Scribbles - it's the one titled 'Prince Trae'

>.>....

I'm still feeling really sick - but hey, at least my exams are all over... I got through my law exam ok - I hope. I'm pretty confident I'll pass at least. Now I just gotta get better - 'coz I'm not feeling well at all....

Yours with a dizzy head -

Bj.

I've been off again-

I've been off procrastinating and somehow I have to deal with my law exam that's tomorrow at 9:00 am sharp. I feel really ill - I just don't want to do it... X / Ick. Sleep. I need to sleep. Then maybe I can get my stuff in order...

Questions?

Sometimes things go all weird - you know, like when someone (yes - it's a guy... = P) treats you a certain way for such a while - then you start to expect it... And well, even if you're okay with how things go, you still get disappointed or whatever... Doesn't it suck? I always find it leaves me with questions - as in why? Was it something I did/said/didn't do/say??? What happened or I am reading to much/have read to much into his actions? *sigh* Life is so confusing. I really do get sick of it sometimes. All the hurting and confusing - everything spins into meltdown....

Pfft! Chucking my concerns aside, I'll live life and get over it!

Adios amigos,

Boni.

P.s. - Funny how I never really think about what I'm really thinking until I sit down and write. It seems that everything in my subconcious comes out - I wonder if I need to overload my poor Blog all the time with all the D&M stuff???!!!

P.s. II - Ohwell - it's gotta go somewere I guess! ^-^!

Whooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sssooooo syced! ^-^!!! I just finished my Communication Traditions Exam, and I think it went pretty well - so I'm fairly confident that I'll pass and WheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That means I don't have to think about it any more!!! Sweet Dude - totally sweeeet... = ) I'm gonna turn off my poor, overloaded, over abused brain and just relax. No work tonight - study or otherwise. YES!

Just a quick bitch about exams though - how much do they bite!!??! You have to cram so much useless info into your head just for two lousy hours, and then while you're taking the exam you find that:

A. You didn't stuff enough stuff into your head
B. You stuffed the WORNG stuff in
OR
C. You get a mental blank, plus a hand cramp and can't write no more anyways!!!

>= P''' ... It's enough to drive me sane.... And that takes a LOT of doing!!!!

Anyway, 'nuff of dat -- I'm freeeeeeee!!!!! Until tomorrow when I have to start studying for my three hour Laws of Commmuncation exam worth 70% (O.o') that I have on Wednesday... Fun. Fun. Fun. (so sacastic - just in case u couldn't tell! >.> )

Meh. I'm over it. Check ya l8r,

T.

*Beep-beep-beep*

*Beep-beep-beep* Warning! Warning! Brain Overload!!! Brain OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Introducing Boni 

Putting it off -

Yeah, I'm absolutely stupid for procrastinating studying for my exam this Friday, but I am. Still! Hey - at least I know what I want to do for one of the questions. Now I just have to work on the other two....

Brought a B'day pressie for my friend - hope he likes it! I mean, how hard is it to buy presents for guys???!!!! With girls - it's sssssooooo easy! Just a bit of jewelery(spelling ?), body stuff, makeup or a chick flick. Easy! Guys - pffft! I suppose you could always personally deliver them a six-pack or something, but geez - =P - I really don't think that's a good pressie to turn up with all the time... Hmmm - though if he doesn't like the shirt I brought him, I think I will just trade it in for some beer!

"Adorno and Horkheimer argue that '[t]he sociological theory that the loss of the support of objectively established religion, the dissolution of the last remnants of precapitalism, together with technological and social diffferentiation or specialisation, have led to cultural chaos is disproved every day; for culture now impresses the same stamp on everything'. How did they support this arguement? Do you agree? Explain.

Question 7, from my Communication Traditions Exams. Fun huh? Now you might be able to see why I'm procrastinating!!! -.-' But now I reeaallly must get on - so,

Ciao,

TB_o

Meep

I can't believe it's another month again - and *gulp* that it's only two months away until the end of the year!!! It's crazy how life goes soooo quickly! I have my own theory as to why that is - but I think it really makes sense.

It's just that while you are young your world is so small, and there is only so much stuff you have to do, or want to do. You have all the time in the world to do it, so time goes so slowly. The older you get, the bigger your world gets and the less time you have for everything you have to do - let alone want to do. Guess that's why time slips away so quickly. Sometimes I just want to have a small world again, but where's the fun in that?.....

I think you've gotta make time for the important things - not just the things you have to do. I know this isn't a new theory - lots of people talk about finding their "inner child" and yadayada, but it does have some truth to it. A child is amazed by the world it sees, the places it goes and the people it meets - it doesn't take the beauty around it for granted and never says "No" to something different because it's scared. Life is infinitely precious - don't let it slip by on the wings of time.

But enough of that - it's time to go.

Bye for now! T. ^ ^!

almost free...

Almost there! Not just with Uni though - maybe, sort of, I think that I might be getting there in other ways too...

But firstly - this Friday is my first exam - then the following Wednesday is my last exam - it's almost all over, I'm almost free from wretched Uni! YAY!!! ^^!

But as to the other stuff - I think I've got a long ways to go - maybe... I'm free to be my own person - a servant of God, yet even as I know that, it seems like I'm trapped somehow. I'm not sure if it's because I'm still living at home and it seems like the whole house is keeping me down - maybe I'm ready to go. Maybe I'm ready - but why am I still so scared? What if the only thing that's stopping me from flying is myself? *sigh* I don't know, but if I find the answer I'll be sure to tell you.

Currently questioning,

Boni.

Procrastinating... -.-'

Yup. I am procrastinating - I'm supposed to be studying for my Communications Traditions exam that's on the fourth (Friday) of October. Two weeks to study, more or less, but I do have to study for my Law of Communications exam which is on the following Wednesday. Right now, I can't be bothered!! I'd much prefer to tell you about all the stuff that I haven't had a chance to write about. Well - not publicly, but you can bet your fuzzy pink toe-socks (Squuueeee! I jist lUff Fuzzy Pink ToeSockS! ^^!) that my Journal's heard all about it!!!

Like - My darling sister and I climbed up Mt. Taylor last Sunday (the 23rd) and blew bubbles up on the very tip-top of the world! At least, it was the tip-top in a direct vertical line down from our feet - but we'll ignore that fact!!! Heh - it just ruins all the fun....

And I went running around in the thunder storm yesterday evening - went and climbed a cliff and watched lighting play over the darkened skies of the city. Now that was cool. I doubt many people really know how obsessed I really am with thunderstorms. There's just something about them that speaks to me, and I just get so restless until I'm out in the wind and rain...

But enough of my random weirdness - well - not quite, 'coz I still don't want to study! >.>' So if I ramble please excuse me because I don't wanna stop, but I'm not sure I have much else to say - which in all actual truth that statement is not quite the truth because there is a lot I want to say, but maybe not now, maybe just because I don't even know what it is I want to say or will be saying, but in all retrospect - truth is so irrelevant anyway!

Meep! -.-' I think that line of thought had better stop there as there is no way I can follow it - though truthfully, I proably can.... And I'm just wondering whether or not any of you - whoever you are - can either? Which reminds me -

"I am who I think you think I am." Great isn't it? That was Cooly's Looking Glass Self. Which leaves me with a sore brain - not that I don't understand what he's trying to say - no, it's more this:

Well, if I am who I think you think I am - where does my whole "Running from the image that I think you think I am thing" come in? As in, if I really am who I think you think I am - that really doesn't work for me - as in, I think that I am the opposite of what I think that you think I am - at least I try to be the opposite!!! Meh - maybe I'm not. But if I think that you think that I am boring - does that really make me boring as I think that I am not boring, or at least try not to be boring and that it has nothing to do with what you think I am therefore???

O.o ...

Now you know why I have a sore brain! Not really - but hey - itsn't all fun?? ^^

Lol - please comment if you wish - I think it'd be great to hear what you think I am and whether or not I really am whom I think you think I am!

TTFN - TinkaBell

Watching and waiting....

Got my presentation over and done with (Thank goodness) and I got a credit plus on my essay which I had been totally stressing over!!! Would have got a distiction if I could speak "literary-ese", but I'm happy with what I got as it is - as in more like absolutely stoked! ^ ^

Just a quick note - I'm twenty in three days and that is sooooo incredably scary!!!! But hey, just another beat of my butterfly wings life... I'll live on, love on and DEFINATELY rock on!!!


Off to practise my layouts -

TinkaBell

Nose to the grind stone

Really putting my head down, and my socks up... I may be well and truely over Uni for this semester, but I'm getting on as I only have four weeks and two days until my exams are over, and I'm FFFFRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So. For now it's all about work, work, work as I really have to finish my last assessment peice and start studying for my exams. = P Even as I write this I just go - bleeergh... Icky work. But anyways, that's enough of the that. It's movtivation time!!!

Off to do some more Uni work after a 9:30 to 3:30 tut/assignment slog,

Boni.

Honey - I'm home!

Well, not really - but I'm back from Stump and I am still struggling with the whole getting "back to reality" (reality bites....) thing. But 'neways, I gotta get into my Uni work as there are only five weeks (ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!) until my exams is over, and I'm free for the rest of the year!!! BUT before I start cheering, I really gotta survive my exams first... >.>' *sigh* Oiy.

Besides that I'm having fun hanging with my friends and Crew so's it's all good. Distracting, but good. ^ ^ !


Oooo_uT for now,

TinkaBell.

Black SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTUM-PH!!!

Wella - it's gonna be ab-so-bally-LUTE-ly rockin' - I'm so syced about it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ^_^

I'll up date on the way it goes later - but for now, I'm just hanging out for the fun to start. I'm planning to see Sons of Korah, Antiskeptic, Wishful Thinking and many, many more.... Dude. That is so freakin' awesome. I just hope I got everything, or there might be some issues... Naw. I't'll b kool. But that is one problem with camping - it is sssooo easy to forget something!!!

off for a stupendious trip-

Boni. ^_^

going crazy

Black Stump's on this weekend and I can't wait to get there!!! It's gonna be absolutely nuts! Whooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in a bit of a wild mood tonight - I think it's the thunder, it always gets me restless, like I'm riding on the front of the wind, streaming over dancing treetops - spiraling high through the black thunder-heads... I'm riding the storm tonight and I'm not ready to stop.....




Tinka.

*silence*

Well. Stuff hasn't been that good this week, I had a 30% assignment due at the end of the week and I didn't know what to do on it... Yep, I procrastinated and procrastinated and procrastinated until it was the due day. I spent six hours straight on the computer finishing it off, and then I couldn't print it out so I have to wait until Monday to hand it in after all that!!! >0<

Having guy probs again... Sometimes I can cope with being single an' I love it, but sometimes, sometimes it just hits me. That lonely ache. Like when I'm hanging with guy friends, or watching movies with realllllyyyyy REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY hot guys like Alex Capelli, who plays in "Hating Alison Ashley"... *drools* Uuwahhh! I luff Alex. >.>'
Then I go from having a buried little lonely ache into a big, huge, giganta-MONGUS lonely ache!! Guess I'll just have to stop watching movies with Alex Cappelli
and Omarion Grandberry in them. .................................................... yeah, right! -.-

Check y'all l8r,

T.

Quick note-

Just dropping in to say that I love snowshoeing, best friends, hanging out with the Crew, staying out late, sleeping in, my new bag, waiting for exciting stuff, music, and gymnastics. Other quick note to say I hate assignments, breaking down cars, spending my saved money, boys, being tired, ends of holidays, boys, not having enough time, not knowing what to do with essays, BOYS, and that little lonely ache I get some times....

That's about my life over the last week or so, and what it's consisted of.
Adios amigos,

Bonita. (a.k.a Tinka)

OOOOO- YAY!!!!!

"I'm walking on sunshine - whoaaaayeaHHH!"

So totally describes my mood right now - I'm walking sunshine !!!! An' don't feel good?? HOOO YE_AHHHH!!!! Why you ask? Just because!!! No, actually, there are lots of reasons - one of them being that I've finished the rough draft of an important essay due this Friday, and all I have to do is get my Dad to check it, and it's done!!! AND because I went on this awesome camp over the weekend - FREEZE. It's for yrs 12 to 25ish and it was GREAT! I learned HEAPS about God through His Word, and I had awesome time with my friends.

The best thing I learned was that even though I fail misarably at honoring God more often than not ( >.>' ), it doesn't matter because in Jesus I am made 10/10 with God! YAYYAY!!!! ^ ^ Of course that doesn't mean I can go living how ever I want, because then there are serious consequences, but if in my human weakness, I fall (ok, and I do that a lot) He'll pick me up, and it's all good. Thankyou God.

And beside that - it's just a Bea-UUUUtiFUl spring day - number seven to be exact - and I'm soo happy.

My prayer is that anyone who reads this may find the same joy and peace I've found. It's not too far away, just reach out for God and He will answer.

Lots of LOVE, Tink.

P.S. Can't forget the other reason why I'm so happy - it's Class Free for Uni students for the next two weeks, and I might be going to visit my bestie in Jindabyne next week which'll be awesome! yay. ^ ^

On top of things - for now

Coping for now with assignments, work, friends and life - I think eveything's ok atm. *nodds head* yep. It's all good. *claps hands* Yayyyy!!! >_<

I have an assignment due this Friday, and I'm getting on with it ok - I did a big one last week, and got it in ten minutes before the dead line (MEEEP! O.o' ) *shush - don't tell Daddy!* , I was so relieved when that was finished. I wasn't late because I left it to the last minute - no, in fact I think I spent too much time correcting. All up I spent ten hours on it - I hope that was enough... I really want to do well with the assesment.

Had fun out with my Crew on Saturday night, and I'm going away to FREEZE this weekend! No - not literally, ( or maybe literally?!? There's a thought! >.> ) Anyway, FREEZE is this awesome camp for year 12s to Uni age (about 25 year olds), in Cooma. We get great Bible teaching, and have fun fellowshiping with other denominations, and make new friends. It's GR-8!! = )

Well, that's it from me for now -

Huasta Leugo,

TB_o.

Hard

It's so hard when your best friend get a boyfriend. I mean, it's not like I'm unhappy 'coz she's got one. In fact I think it's great. It's just that she wants to spend her time with him. Mostly more than she does with me. I know that she's proabably not doing it on purpose - she's not the kind of girl to intentionally hurt anyone. It's just the way things go sometimes. But that doesn't make me feel any better when I'm the one getting ditched!!!

*sigh* Ahh well. Maybe it'll give me a chance to get to know some other people better. = ) I'm sure it'll be ok. I think I just need to talk to her a bit. Commmunication pretty much always helps!!

This theory of mine, by the way, has never failed me yet! ^^

Signing out for now,

T.

Bleeeggch

I hate not getting good marks, and I almost died over my last lot of marks, but hey, I gotta get it wrong sometimes eh? Just like when we were playing hang-man in my tutorial, before the tutor came, and I couldn't spell right!!! >< meh. It's all good. Had a good day at work today, and I've finally got an MP3 player - yeah, I had to save up - not enough dough.... *sigh* It's so awful when your a poor uni student... ~_^

Me thinks that be all the news so far - so have a good one everyone, and I'll check y'all 'round l-8aaaaa!!! = ) T.

Too much?

I haven't got much ta say - just that isn't amazing how you can get hooked from one thing to another? I dunno about you, but I find that happens to me like all the time.

Like (ugh I hate that word, but whatever...) when I watch a movie that's got dance in it - it's like all I want to do is dance... And if someone's talking about writing, or drawing, or something like that I get hooked on that too. There is SOOOOOOOO much stuff I wanna be good at - drawing, dance, music(learning to play the guitar!!!), writing, gymnastics and horseriding are just like the first few that are really important to me - then there's iceskating, soccer, photography, singing, and goodness only knows what else.... o! Snowboarding, computing, learning languages... Can anyone tell me - is there such a thing as TOO many hobbies???? I really am beginning to think that there is. I mean, how can you ever really be good at anything if you don't focus solely on that thing??

Maybe I have to just stick with learning the guitar, writing, drawing and gymnastics. For now. Maybe... Gah - dunno when, maybe when I'm older I'll learn some of the other stuff. Maybe.

Husta Leugo,

Tinka.

To dance the night away...

Whee!! I'm off to a "Heros and Villians Ball" and I'm going as a villian!!!

I was going to go as Posion Ivey, but as I didn't have the right clothes, I changed my mind and now I'm the Snow Queen from The Chronicles of Narnia. ^^ Woot - sooo much fun!!
Oh yeah - and a BIIIIEEEEEEGGGGGG

Happy Birthday

to my gorgeous sister who is now fifteen!

Off to dance...

Tinka

Killiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes - killiiii (Kill - e) is the cry of the day when my stupid computer crashes!! *sigh* I wrote my microstory (400 words) for my Creative Writing class and than the program stuffed up and I lost it! I was ssoooo unhappy. And I had to write it over again - and of course, I couldn't remember the exact words. It's soo frustrating when that happens.

But I got over it, and wrote it again. I had to. And I'm not sure - but I almost think the story's better for it. But anyways, gotta go and get ready for work now -

Check ya, T.

Shruggs

Why is it that I always go and screw up everything???

Seriously, have you ever been on a roll - speaking out in your class, being friendly, doing something outside of yourself, and you've caught a weird glance from someone - anger, disgust, or horror?

I don't know what it is - but, *sigh* sometimes that happens to me - like today I talking in our discussion in our Tut. - not all the time, but at the end of the discussion, I caught something indescernable from my tutor - something not good, and I wonder if I've screwed up - talking to much or something. I was just trying to give feedback, but maybe I gave to much.

And even if I wasn't the intended reciepiant of the glance - I still question myself, and the way others veiw me. Am I really that insecure??? I guess I am. If the truth be told, I not sure if anyone else can see my insecurities - and I'm starting to feel that's a bad thing. Maybe. I DON'T KNOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >X O It's so frustrating - excuse my screaming, but I had to. How do other people see me????

Maybe I don't really want to know. It's not like I have a ton of friends, or a boyfriend for that matter - guess there's a reason. What it is I don't know, and I think if I did....


I'd break.



I'm the way I am, and no-one likes me like that. *plays the world's shortest tune, on the world's smallest violin* Sob-sob (sarcastically) I am so pathetic.


So, sorry all for the dump. I know I'm being stupid - or maybe I'm stupid full stop.

Your fool for life,

TinkaBell_o


Heck, a nickname like that - and I wonder why I'm so weird??? O.-

Ka-CHoO!!!

Headaches, sniffles and a nasty 'flu virus.... *sigh* Not cool. 'Specially when I've got work to do!!! Gah. Bye.

Have you?

Have you ever just written - not thinking what you are saying, but just getting your current thoughts down on page - hold you high and steal your pain, 'coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome - and I don't feel right when you've gone... Sitting by the rain streaked window... Playing, listening to the music of loneliness... Giving into the weakness... When I'm lonesome....

Meh. You really can't do that when your listening to a song - the words in your head - your voice, is drowned out by the more powerful emotions and words that the song betrays. How can an ordinary sound be heard when it is flooded with the extrodinary?

Anyways, I think that that's enough of that - though I did get a interesting little piece (bout 300 words) done when I was given a random phrase by someone out of my Creative Writing Tutorial - which, by the way, was heaps of fun. But my 400 word microstory, plus my discussion notes have to be written in a week's time. At least it'll be over and done with then!!

Practising

It seems that I can never get to a point of 'good' work with either my art or writing. I guess that's the whole
"Those who are satisfied with medeocrity will always succeed, but those who are only satisfied with perfection will always fail." But as comforting as that is for my thing about always failing, it doesn't help when I can never get there. Anywhere!

It would be nice to able to look at something I've done and say - yes, that is good work. In the meanwhile, I guess it's all about practising. That's the only way you get anywhere. By working. >.> I think it makes what you acheive more worthwhile. But it's so hard to get to the point of acheivement. But that's just my opinion!

adios.

Inspiration

a flight of fancy

a flight of fancy takes to wing -
riding boldly on the backs of stars -
twisting, turning, it flutters through dreams -
only leaving the touch of a golden step -
a thin, fading, trail that beckons alluringly.

glistening and shimmering -
a shaft of pure immagination -
peircing through what it will -
like a lone, sun sent ray.

a wandering vision -
a golden dream -
easier it is to cage a nightingale -
than to catch the fleeting glory.

but through the translator -
the quicksilver takes form -
flowing across the snow-white plain -
showing with every twist and turn -
a facet of the changing picture.

and so the dreamers dream -
striving to follow the path -
capturing the shadow -
with it's reflection of faieries, elfs and nymphs.

lifting for a heart beat -
the veil that divides the face of reality -
from the vision of fantasy -
unicorns, dragons and magical beasts -
woven through guiding tales before.

so when elusive inspiration takes wing -
coaxing, calling to the restless below -
Come, Come tame the flight of fancy -
If you can!



we will try...




I wrote that some time ago - but when I was in my first Creative Writing lecture yesterday, I forgot it. There's nothing like sitting down in a room full of eager, talented writers (or musicians, or what have you) to make you feel insiginificant - that maybe you're not good enough after all. I am definately feeling a sense of inadequat, unoriginality. It's not like anyone thinks I'm a good writer or anything. Far from it. It's just what I do. Give me a blank peice of paper and a pen, and I draw. Give me a beautiful senery and I write. Kind of messed up - I know. It's not that I can't live without writing either. I don't know. As I said before - I guess it's just something I do. *sigh* There really is nothing I do that is spectacular in any way, shape or form. I write, I draw, I sing and sometimes dance. I horseride and do gymnastics. I am a student who likes to learn. BIG whoop. As you maybe able to tell - I have a great sense of ordinary-ness about myself and I hate it.

please spare a thought for me -
above all i'd rather be -
only born of originality......

That's almost a prayer for me. Yet it's further from my ways than - than - than smoking and drinking coffee is!!! (Yes, I don't smoke and I despise coffee - the taste anyways)

Meh. Stuck in a rut with no way out. I'm going to stop now before I start weeping.

Distantly yours,

TinkaBell.

-_-'

Okay - I would love to say that the reason for my not updating my Blog over the last month and a half is that I was in the heart of darkest Peru and I don't have a wireless laptop. And because darkest Peru hasn't got a very good connection and I was too busy fighting Anacondas anywas, I couldn't update. -_-' But that would be lying. For the truth is that while I've had my Uni holidays I've been extremely lazy, and not done a thing. I was going to practice my art - hand drawn and computer drawn, and write a few songs and stuff these hols, I didn't do any of that at all.... I did seem to drive around a lot for my parents, doing various chores, but other then that I just watched a lot of T.V. Which is really unproductive, but meh.

I really do do a lot more stuff when I've got a regular schedule, and there's lots of stuff to be done. So for that reason I'm actually quite happy to be back at Uni. And also, I am totally get over the brain turning into mush thing. This semester I'm doing Creative Writing 2, (which I'm really looking forwards to as I get to create my own portfolio!!), Laws of Communications, (sounds a bit boring, but anyways), and Communication Traditions. Sweet dude, totally sweet.

Uh... I know there's more stuff to be caught up on...

Right - S.o.L. has been scuttled before it even began. I only had two other people interested in joining up, and they were both guitarist - which isn't bad, but it wasn't working unfortunately.
I've started my adult gymnastics classes again (I stopped when I got broke) and have been pleasantly surprised with strength of my muscle memory - aka- I can do the stuff I used too, O.O - but I have noticed that my general muscular strength has been wayyyyy depleted - along with flexibility.

There's been lots of dramas over the last month - I've had to learn a lot of painful lessons, and sometimes I ask myself why God has to teach me all this stuff all at once? Why do I have to be smashed - why couldn't I just get pulled apart bit by bit??? But then again, that might be even more painful! My bestie also has had a bit of a drama concerning boys, but what else is new?? Boys are such trouble. The good news is she's pulled through, and they're just friends. For now.

Me and my sister got up recently at an open mike night - no preparation, and no backing, and sung 'The Water Buffalo Song' - the Veggie Rocks version, and it was fun!! Mind you, I don't think I'll be doing it again like that - but I would like to get up and sing some other time. We'll see.

I'm preparing to head out to FREEZE for a weekend in September, and then I'll be rockin' out at Black Stump!!! I can't wait - it's gonna be great. It will be my first 'Stump - considering that I always heard about it too late, but this time I've got it sorted, so it should be all good.

Hmm. I think that that's about it for now - but I will update regularly now that I'm back at Uni, so :

TTFN -
TaTa For Now - Tinka. ^^

Finding Stuff

I'm finding stuff out. I'm finding that I'm glad to be single - I don't have to worry about someone else's heart - just my own. I'm finding that I love hanging out a lot - but I don't like getting lost. I'm finding out that my art is coming along quite nicely, especially now that I've found new ways to shade. I'm also finding that there is more good music out there that I ever imagined and I don't think I can compete with it all! I'm finding that I'm growing up, but not growing any wiser or in descernment - (O Lord, please help me!) I'm finding that I still follow my feelings too much. I'm finding that I make mistakes - a LOT of mistakes. I'm finding that holidays are boring if you don't do anything while you're doing nothing. I'm finding that I can make new friends. I'm finding that maybe I'm not such a freak after all. I'm finding that God is absolutely, without a doubt, the bestest. I'm finding the rain is wonderful, as well as wonderfully cold. I'm finding that I'm just me. The way I am. I'm finding life!!! ^ ^

My Web Page

MY WEB PAGE - yes, it's linked for you.

So there you go. I finally could be bothered and built myself a web page. It's got all the links I like and the sites I frequent - just in case anyone would be *gasp shock horror* interested!!!!!! : I Heh - I'm actually getting the hang of HTML code too ( O.o' ). It's lotsa fun!!! ^^

Speaking (or writing) of fun, I had a great time shopping with my bestie this arvo.; even though I didn't have any money, heck - I figured out you don't need money when you can spend your friend's money on her!! >.< AND my other bestie came up from Jindabyne and stayed the night as she was on her way to Sydney. Lots of cool bonding time. 'Neways, gotta go get ready for more shopping.... O ya - a new cool site I found yesterday!

Lyrics on Demand

It's so awesome - I found lyrics I'd been wanting for millions of songs! So if you wanna know the rest of that-song-that-you-only-know-one-line-of-that's-tormenting-you-by-playing-
in-your-head-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and
-over-and-over-and-over-and -------------- (ect.)

Well, you get the picture. Check it out!

Off to shop 'til she drops - Boni. ^^

Slowness

Meh - it's time to gripe about how sucky it is that my band is taking FOREVER to get off the gound...

I just want to get started, but I'm starting to think that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I figured out last night that the reasons I wanted to start this whole thing - maybe they weren't the right ones. But it's changed. I really want this band to work - like the passion I feel about good literature for teens. I'm starting to think the same way about music. It's such a vital part of life for so many, but so often it's just not ... Meh - not right anyway.

Music should provoke thought, make people examine their lives - or at the very least, reflect on our awesome God. I'm not saying that you can't have your fun songs, or dance songs, or any of that. Just that there should be good stuff as well as the usual. Of course, this is just my opinion, and many may not agree with me. But that, I feel, should be the goal of Shades of Light. To create thought provoking, mindful music. Mind you, when it's put like that it sounds sooooo stuffed shirt-y. The music won't be though - I love to rock too much for that to happen!!! ^ ^

Drop the bass line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rock on the Rock - Tink_A. :)

That Feeling....

Do you ever get that feeling where you are waiting for something - anything - to happen? Usually when you do, you go make some plans to do something. You wait for an hour, maybe two, for your friends to get back to you and then your friends text back and go "Oh sorry I actually can't do anything today." or whatever. How much of a let down is that!!! So annoying... Especially when that stupid expectancy won't leave you alone then.

Meh. Anyways, I'm posting up something I drew last night - it's not all there, 'coz my scanner isn't big enough, but I hope you can get the drift. I'll put it in my art gallery 'coz i can't get it up.

La-li-la!

I'sa been at work alllllll day - well not quite, from 10:30 'til 3:15 and my feet HURT!!! But I'm happy now, 'coz I heard my newst favourite song - 'Don't phunk with my heart' by The Blackeyed Peas on the way home - an' wheee! It's all good.

Everytime I think about him - I banish him from my mind. I think it's working, except now he's escaping and starting to haunt my dreams. It hurts. But I've gotta push through this. *sigh*

"I'm blue - dee-dee-di-dum-dee-dee-di-dum... Inside and outside..."

La-la *sings along to I'm Blue* I luff singing and music - it always makes me feel better.

Happi-er now,

Yours, TinkaBell. ^^

Everything old is new again...

I can't believe it's another month, yet here we go again! I wonder what will come? Proably a re-run of everything old so it's new again. What with boy troubles - meh: I'm soooo over all the annoy-ing-ness, seriously! - work, Uni, friends, and all that jazz, it's nothing new, yet I'm sure it will seem that it is when it comes around. ;_; *sniff* Dunno why that makes me want to cry, but it does. Maybe I'm just in a crying mood...

*bounces* But not for long. I've found a new group of friends that have welcomed me most nicely and it's been great times hanging out with the them, that I hope will continue. And I'm finally (sort of) getting my car. Mum and Dad are buying a new car and I'm getting Dad's old work one - a Nissian Bluebird SSS. Cool huh? No, it's not new, in fact it's ten years old, but it's a 4 cylinder and I think (*_8) it rocks! It's much nicer than anything I would've been able to afford anyway. 'Course, Dad hasn't really given me the car, but I get first dibs, and I won't have to ask to take it out. Which totally rocks.

Heh - great times. Although I'm still breakin' my heart, I've choosen to get over him, and that's that. Choose your love and love your choice. That's what I'm living by right now. Meh. And I'll make it, I know I will. With God's help I can do anything!!!!!!

So I'm off for now, gotta try and sell our old VW so's my sister and me can re-do our bedroom in Dad's office,

Bye.

Dropping off the radar

Sorry to anyone who's interested about the lack of up-dates. I just happen to be going through a really stressful time right now.

What with the low of exams - Thank the Lord they're over - the high of going out with my friends, the low of finally admitting to myself that I HAVE to stop liking the guy I like, and the high of holidays - I've just been up and down on an emotional rollacoaster all week!!! O.* '

It's killed me I must admit. I am soooo tired. I just want for everything to go away, to settle down in a cottage with a nice RIDEABLE horse just out side and a beach on my front doorstep. Meh, I wish.....

*sigh*

Anyway, I'm sure things will start to look up soon. Though SoL hasn't got off the ground as of yet, and that's kind of being messed up. Never mind. Things will change, and in the mean time, the Lord is with me.

Adios, Tink.

---- Silence ----

Heheh. Can't think straight - I'm sooo starting to get really nervous. These exams are going to kill me!!! Gah. Gotta stop being so negative about them. *takes a deep breath* No, I'll be fine. It's going to be okay.

I'm going to a part-A, I'm going to a part-AAA!!!!! Yey! This weekend (yes - the weekend before exams) is my bestest friend's 18th birthday party. It's gonna be great fun!

But right now, I don't feel like celebrating for some reason. I'm in a silent mood I guess. I'm not really sure of the characteristics of a silent mood - besides the silence (DUH), but it's definately a grey mood. Hmm. Dunno why though. It's not the exams, and it's not financial troubles, or lack of socialness. It's not because things are bad - God has been extremely good to me and my family. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do. *whaaa* I need a hug!!! :'(

*sighs* owell, back to life. At least I don't have to stand on my own - I know that He is with me, and that's better than anything.

Down in the grey for now,
Tinka.

Perfect

"It's got to be - ooohohyeah - per_fect. It's got to be - ooohohhhoyeah - peeeerrrrrr _FECT!"

The last week has been the topest week ever! Super-duper busy, but still tops. It all started Saturday night, when I went to the UBD gig, then hung out with my friends til 2:00am. Then on Sunday I had a great day at my new work, Hill Station, then my Dad AND Mum both got new jobs as well, (THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU LORD!) then I got that Report done, then I went to my friend's 20th after painting him his Birthday present ( picture which I think he liked ) and then I hung out with my friends again, then I went to work on Friday night, which was good, and THEN on Saturday I had a sleepover with my sister, and her friend which was really fun, and today's been really good and everything is just better then PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!

*happy sigh* I think I'm am finally moving off that crush as well, even though I totally got it back last weekend, but now I hope I'm able to move on. But that's really good. Only have to survive my exams - and squeeeeeeee! I'm just loving life! Time for bed now though,

Kisses an' Huggles,

TinkaBell ~_^

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

I have had the BESTTTT weekend - got to go to a Use By Date concert Saturday night, got a new job, which is turning out to be super-fantastic, had soooo much fun with my friends Saturday night - Wheeee! I'm so happy! Thankyou Lord for being the bestest!
Mind you, I'm also happily tiredddd. Stayed up 'til 2:00 am Sat., and couldn't go to sleep 'til 12:00 am last night. I can hardly keep my eyes open. And I still haven't finished that @#)#$$ report that's due this Wednesday first thing, and I have to work tomorrow at 11:00 am to about 3:00 - 4:00, maybe later... And biggest narky thing of all - my exams are in two weeks time, including this week. --- *sigh* ---
But once all that is over, life'll be really sweet for a while. I'm getting my car (FINALLY) soon, and with the cash flow, and friends, and SoL, it's gonna be pretty awesome. Just gotta get through these last two weeks. Please Lord, give me strength.

Yours half happy, a quarter tired and a quarter scared,

Tinka.