And so it begins - @_o!

*Incoming Trasmission*

*Author's Note* This diary of a young soldier was found recently in an old tumble-down attic, covered in dust and blood... It was a dark and stormy night when the gory details were revealed, and since then things have never been the same.... (Just kidding! We're renovating our house, and my sister and I are moving out into our garage, so our room is going to be totally awesome by the time we've finished. [and twice the size!] So this a brief account of the mess in my house atm.)

TOP SECERT - DO NOT READ UNLESS AUTHORIZED


day 1 _________ tuesday _ 27/12/2005


It's been a long time coming. We've been preparing for this day for six months now. We have gone through Plan A to Z and a couple of numerals too. Things have been winding up tenser and tenser, and then it happened. General Sj made the suggestion. So it was up to myself, Captain Tinka, and Luetenant CoolChic, to get the stuff we needed. At 01000 hours we marched to Revolve, and under the General's watchful eye, we brought two top secret wardrobes and a set of weapon bunk beds. This was just the beginning.

day 2 ________ wednesday _ 28/12/2005


Up at the crack of dawn - 0700 hours, it was time to let General Sj, Major Mumbly, Corpral Freaky, and Private Jayz in on the battle plan Lt CoolChic and I had concocted in the wee small hours of the night. As we had expected the was some outcry, but we were able to persude them to see reason. After the offical meeting and red tape (the General's permission) we had to sort out, the Lt and I got stuck into it. It was time to move. Everything in our headquarters got spread out all through the base, and tucked in to any corner we could find. The problems started when we realized we need materials from other areas, so more stuff (junk) had to be shifted. With all the shifting about we only ended up preping one of the top secret wardrobes, and part of the high level chest.

day 3 _________ thursday _ 29/12/2005


Time for the search to begin. Assembling the battalion in the troop 'copter, we charged out to find our super special carpet. No luck in the first base we flew into, so we raided another, and struck the mother load. Still short on supplies though, so we headed out again, but this time with a special strike team of the General, Lt and myself. We got in there and out again safely, with no incidents.

day 4 _________ friday _ 30/12/2005


It was now time for the dirty work to begin. Preping, and painting the high security gear we'd picked up took time, energy and and effort that the Lt and I almost didn't have. The heat was incrediable, and it took all our strength to keep on going. Under Mozzie-dart attacks, that swamped us from time to time, we manage to make it through with no casualties, and little damage. For now.

day 5 ________ saturday _ 31/12/2005


Waking up early, it was time to get on with the serious stuff. The painting done on a third of the gear, we have two T.S wardrobes done, and the H.L. chest finished. The two sets of W.B. beds are still to be done, plus two rocket Bookselves, a under-cover desk and two mini-mine dressing tables. Looking at what we've achieved so far, we still have a long trek ahead of us. The base is in absolute shambles - there is no way we'd be able to do our work in any sort of order, as half of the contents of the base are strewn through out the place. Dust, shrapnel, and vital equiment are mixed together in the growning mounds of gear. And we're not even half way through....




*Author's Note* The rest of the diary is lost. The search has begun for the missing parts - in due time they will be unearthed, so stay tuned.

*Transmission Complete*

T. Bird out.

I'm BACK YA'LL~

Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells, Jingle Bells rock an' alll that JAAAAAZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!*sings loudly*

Hey everyone, hope you had a good Christmas - I know I did even though I worked all day. Busy entertaining peoples, reading books, watching my new Zoids: Chaotic Century DVDs - oya, I luff Zoids!!! ^-^ !

Things seemed to be all wacked at the mo' though - I'm busy sorting through stuff...

Heya, on to better things - the days are hot an' gorgeous, and my sister's pushing me to help with her writing - i.e. co-author with her. I thought I was past that, but I do want to help her. I just don't think that I can! I almost didn't pass my Creative Writing course. How can I call myself an author? I just don't have what it takes.

*sigh* so much for better things!!! I seriously go round in circles sometimes - and I don't mean the Kylie-Minouge-type of spinning either.

Meh - 'neways, I'm trying to deciede what movie to go see tonight (on cheap@$$ Tuesday) Mask of Zorro or Chronicles of Narnia? Hmmm.... Both are good and I shall see both, but what one tonight?
>.......< ???? *so she puzzled til her puzzler was sore* <--- Direct quote from The Grinch ^^ Good movie!

Gtg now, I'll c u l8r,

Boni.

*oophew* It's sssooo hot!!! *melts* BUYYYYEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IT'S BEGINNING TO LOOK LIKE>>>>

CHRISTMAS!!!!

Whoo!!! I can hardly believe that another year has passed, and so much has happened over the last year... I started Uni, such a big thing for myself who had been homeschooled all my life, got a new job, that moved me up in service and learning about stuff, I've realized that I am not, and never will be a writer, but maybe if I practise real hard I can be an artist, I've learned how hard life is without Christ as your center and rock - I've been witness to the pain that troubles you through life if you don't have Him as Lord and Saviour, I've found out what it's like to be wanted, and to want in return, I know how much you depend on a friendly face, and what it means to you when you find it, when you find a friend... Life is so perfect sometimes, and sometimes it just hurts...

Each moment
passes, and it's not the amount of moments in which you breathe that matter, but the moments that make you lose your breath... I've been lucky to have some of those moments this year - Road trips with my gfs, Sleeping out under the stars on the beach, Learning new things that make me stop and wonder at the awesomeness of this world, Enjoying staying up late with friends just 'coz you can, Finding a little more of the wonder of In to me see, Golden summer days - Stormy dark nights, Music that touches your soul,
Hearing God speaking to you, Realizing that you've come so far, but more of the wonder of your journey still lies before you... Rejoice!!! Rejoice and be glad, for a Saviour is born and THAT is something to make you lose your breath.

Christmas is a time for celebration,
and reflection - may everyone see the wonder of their life behind them, and before them, May you all (to be politically correct) have a wonderful Holiday!

^-^, Best wishes always,

Bonita. (TinkaBell)

P.S. - And a Happy New Year in case I don't get on before the turn of the year!! ^ ^!

Exterary 'pecially

Did anyone notice the archive with December 1990 marked on it? I went in there today, and found three posts of "Luvin U" in it!!! What's really odd is that I only started my Blog in March 2005, so I guess Blogger.com must've had some sort of glitch. Not that I mind or anything - it's quite amusing! ^-^! *thinks* And that would explain why, when posting "Luvin U", I had to post it repeatedly, as it said that I had posted successfully, but the post wasn't on my Blog. At least, it wasn't on the December 2005 page!

Update in the life of Tinka:

I've been really sick over the last few days - I had to spend Friday in bed, and cancel my work shifts... So I'm still getting over this nasty 'flu virus, and I'm broke too! ;_; .... Really not cool, but hey that's life I guess.


ummm... ain't dot nofink else to say....

*sings* Just keep swimming, just keep swimming, just keep swimming.....

C u! ^^, Bj.

*D'OH!!!*

D'OOOOOOOOHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Boy - do I ever feel stuuuupid... =^.^= It seems like I've been having an extra batch of blonde moments this month - an' o boyous... Theysa not be vera purtyful..

First I call Dad up at 10:30 pm when I couldn't start Bob (my new car) and get him out of bed to my work to pick me up, only to find I had Bob in the wrong gear. And yep, sure 'nuff he started perfectly when I put him in park... *blushes* Stupid. I know. But hey - I topped that today!

I locked Bob's keys in his boot!! @_@' And yep, all the doors had been neatly locked by myself just a moment ago.... >.> Dad had to break in (and he scratched up my tinting... = P) so's I could get my only key back....
*groans* Oyishka.... I really have been pulling it off this month. At least the above haven't been too bad - just dumb. Hey - I haven't totally humiliated myself in front of any hotties - but don't worry - that is ssssuuuure to come!!!

So keep tuned -

C ya! T. ^-^

Amigo, Step, and me with our finished work - Boris! 

Boris, in all his rockclimbing glory... ^ ^! 

Luvin u

Just kidding!! ^-^!!! No, I really do luv u guys.... And the holidays!! I am just having the best break from Uni right now.

Hanging out w/ Step an' Amigo* (*name change - dunno if he wants to be on my Blog!!) has been fun, I've been indoor rockclimbing w/ the Crew, partying w/ the Hugh's crowd, buying a NEW CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! (more in a mo.) - working, doing a bit of art, getting hooked on boardgames, meeting heaps of new ppl - and new guys to talk too! *winkx* ; ) - heheee, it's been all good.

Ok - new car. I got it on Saturday, it's a little Ford Laser, and I call him Bob. He's in excelllent condition for a 23 year old framework, and a 4 year old motor. And I love him to bits already! He's white, and I can't wait to deck out his interior. He's got mag wheels ( ^-^! ), and I got roof racks as well - can't wait for the first road trip!! It's gonna be sweet dude - totallyyy SweeeeT!!! I'll have ta put up photos. WOOT! I finally got my first car!!! ( And I only paid $900.00 dollars for him too - SUCH a bargin!! )

Step, Amigo, and I painted Amigo's new rockclimbing wall (sorry, boldering [? spelling?] wall) today - it was sooo much fun! It took us from 10:30 ish 'til 4:00pm, with a few breaks and trips for paint and stuff we forgot, but it was SOOOOO worth it. I'lll be putting up pictures in my album Etches, as I designed the image that Step and I decided to call Borris, who is the focal point of the design, and he is this really cute geko! After that we played Monopoly Party on the PlayStation and I THRASHED everyone @$$' - only by fuke mind you - but it was fun - I sent everyone bankrupt!!! X D !!!! (meh - I'm not a n00b, it's just that I hardly ever really win boardgames, so I was happy with the change....)


*big happy sigh* = ) So luvin life right now - it's ABSO_BALLY_LUTE_LY FAN_TAS_TEEEEC!!!!!!!! I am so happy! Thankyou Lord for all you've given me.... ^-^!


*happyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappyhappy*



BBBBBBBBBBBBBYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Boni. ^ ^

more

More pictures up in my album - Tinkas etches, on photobucket.com - check 'em out if you want - I'm also designing an artwork to transfer on to one of my friend's (he's in the Crew) new rockclimbing wall that he's getting as an early Christmas pressie. Whee! Then we're (the Crew) are gonna paint it on on Monday. Lotsa fun! ^^!

Actually, it's only the second peice of artwork that I've really ever done for someone else - (besides a few small things - like cards an' birthday pictures). I was going to do my first commissioned peice onto a guitar for a friend, but he cancelled ( = P ) - and the other piece was given as a 2oth birthday present. But then again, I'm not doing this by myself, only designing it - so can it really count as my own work?? Meh - ......

'neways, have a good one ya'll -

TinkaBell_o

P.S. - O yeah!!! I forgot to mention - I passed my exams - got two P's and a CR, so I'm pretty happy with that. Especially as my credit came from Communication Traditions, and I totally didn't get that subject at all all semester, though it seems I've manged to do something right in that class! O.O Yay!!! No more worries for the rest of the year! ^-^!!!!

*yawns*

Sooo tired!!!

I've been working really hard, an' I went out last night with a bunch of peeps from Hugh's - which was really, really, really cool! I had lotsa fun. But I am tired...

Just a question, does everyone one have a theory about the scared, scarred one? 'Coz if they do -I'd like to know it. Funny how you go through life, and things come and go - you don't even realize what's been until you look back and see the route you took. If I don't have a map for love how do I deal? I gotta guide book that helps me through life, but it doesn't tell where to wait for him... Grrrr. And right now I don't even want to be thinking about boys in any shape, sort, or form - .... Pfft. Stupid, flithy, fat creatures...

Go away and never come back!


*runs and hides in her room*

Boni.

Crusing

Life's pretty good right now - I'm enjoying the break immensely, and even though I'm working so much on the weekends I don't get to go out at all - ) ': - I'm still having a relaxing time. Am still getting over this virus thing too - though I'm starting to wonder if some of the symtoms weren't/aren't hay fever as well... Does hayfever make your glands swell? hmm. ..

Started looking at going to a new church. It's just gotten so that the life of our (my family's) church is dried out and gone. It's sad, and really hard, but we know we have to move, so we're on the look out for another place to fellowship. Currently, Hugh's Basptist is looking promising. ^^

Got a new pair of shoes today! They're black wedges with the cutest little sparkling flower where the straps meet. Nice price too - I just love a great bargin!

One thing that's got me a bit bummed is that I can't go to the beach at all 'coz I don't have anyway of getting there, and that even if I did, me and my bestie are at odds right now... Whaaaa!! We haven't had a huge fight or anything, but she's holding something back from me - doesn't wanna talk about something, and our relationship isn't as open as it has been for the last four or five years... It's so sad, and I'm really praying that everything will get sorted, 'coz it's just not cool.... Not at all.

Besides, all that, life's good. ^^

I'll check ya round,

B.

Here we goooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Finally!!!!!!!!! It's my first week of holidays. Even though I finished my last exam on Wednesday last week, I've been sick and it's taken this long to sink in.... I'm freeeee!!!!!!!!! WOOT!!!

Mind you I still feel really ill - but hey, at least I may have a chance of recovery as I don't have much to do until I get an extra job for the hols. I really need the cash. So it's gonna be work,work, work for this little chick-a-bee. That is, in between working on my Oekaki-ing and drawing. Meh. 'Neways, I've been sitting far to long at this computer - I can feel my eyes going square -

Adios amigo - Via le liberati!!! (My mangled French... o.o' )

Tinka.

P.s. - This is why my eyes r square!! *puts picture up on Photobucket* Check it out if you want - TinkaBell_o, then go to Tinkas Scribbles - it's the one titled 'Prince Trae'

>.>....

I'm still feeling really sick - but hey, at least my exams are all over... I got through my law exam ok - I hope. I'm pretty confident I'll pass at least. Now I just gotta get better - 'coz I'm not feeling well at all....

Yours with a dizzy head -

Bj.

I've been off again-

I've been off procrastinating and somehow I have to deal with my law exam that's tomorrow at 9:00 am sharp. I feel really ill - I just don't want to do it... X / Ick. Sleep. I need to sleep. Then maybe I can get my stuff in order...

Questions?

Sometimes things go all weird - you know, like when someone (yes - it's a guy... = P) treats you a certain way for such a while - then you start to expect it... And well, even if you're okay with how things go, you still get disappointed or whatever... Doesn't it suck? I always find it leaves me with questions - as in why? Was it something I did/said/didn't do/say??? What happened or I am reading to much/have read to much into his actions? *sigh* Life is so confusing. I really do get sick of it sometimes. All the hurting and confusing - everything spins into meltdown....

Pfft! Chucking my concerns aside, I'll live life and get over it!

Adios amigos,

Boni.

P.s. - Funny how I never really think about what I'm really thinking until I sit down and write. It seems that everything in my subconcious comes out - I wonder if I need to overload my poor Blog all the time with all the D&M stuff???!!!

P.s. II - Ohwell - it's gotta go somewere I guess! ^-^!

Whooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am sssooooo syced! ^-^!!! I just finished my Communication Traditions Exam, and I think it went pretty well - so I'm fairly confident that I'll pass and WheeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That means I don't have to think about it any more!!! Sweet Dude - totally sweeeet... = ) I'm gonna turn off my poor, overloaded, over abused brain and just relax. No work tonight - study or otherwise. YES!

Just a quick bitch about exams though - how much do they bite!!??! You have to cram so much useless info into your head just for two lousy hours, and then while you're taking the exam you find that:

A. You didn't stuff enough stuff into your head
B. You stuffed the WORNG stuff in
OR
C. You get a mental blank, plus a hand cramp and can't write no more anyways!!!

>= P''' ... It's enough to drive me sane.... And that takes a LOT of doing!!!!

Anyway, 'nuff of dat -- I'm freeeeeeee!!!!! Until tomorrow when I have to start studying for my three hour Laws of Commmuncation exam worth 70% (O.o') that I have on Wednesday... Fun. Fun. Fun. (so sacastic - just in case u couldn't tell! >.> )

Meh. I'm over it. Check ya l8r,

T.

*Beep-beep-beep*

*Beep-beep-beep* Warning! Warning! Brain Overload!!! Brain OVERLOAD!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Introducing Boni 

Putting it off -

Yeah, I'm absolutely stupid for procrastinating studying for my exam this Friday, but I am. Still! Hey - at least I know what I want to do for one of the questions. Now I just have to work on the other two....

Brought a B'day pressie for my friend - hope he likes it! I mean, how hard is it to buy presents for guys???!!!! With girls - it's sssssooooo easy! Just a bit of jewelery(spelling ?), body stuff, makeup or a chick flick. Easy! Guys - pffft! I suppose you could always personally deliver them a six-pack or something, but geez - =P - I really don't think that's a good pressie to turn up with all the time... Hmmm - though if he doesn't like the shirt I brought him, I think I will just trade it in for some beer!

"Adorno and Horkheimer argue that '[t]he sociological theory that the loss of the support of objectively established religion, the dissolution of the last remnants of precapitalism, together with technological and social diffferentiation or specialisation, have led to cultural chaos is disproved every day; for culture now impresses the same stamp on everything'. How did they support this arguement? Do you agree? Explain.

Question 7, from my Communication Traditions Exams. Fun huh? Now you might be able to see why I'm procrastinating!!! -.-' But now I reeaallly must get on - so,

Ciao,

TB_o

Meep

I can't believe it's another month again - and *gulp* that it's only two months away until the end of the year!!! It's crazy how life goes soooo quickly! I have my own theory as to why that is - but I think it really makes sense.

It's just that while you are young your world is so small, and there is only so much stuff you have to do, or want to do. You have all the time in the world to do it, so time goes so slowly. The older you get, the bigger your world gets and the less time you have for everything you have to do - let alone want to do. Guess that's why time slips away so quickly. Sometimes I just want to have a small world again, but where's the fun in that?.....

I think you've gotta make time for the important things - not just the things you have to do. I know this isn't a new theory - lots of people talk about finding their "inner child" and yadayada, but it does have some truth to it. A child is amazed by the world it sees, the places it goes and the people it meets - it doesn't take the beauty around it for granted and never says "No" to something different because it's scared. Life is infinitely precious - don't let it slip by on the wings of time.

But enough of that - it's time to go.

Bye for now! T. ^ ^!

almost free...

Almost there! Not just with Uni though - maybe, sort of, I think that I might be getting there in other ways too...

But firstly - this Friday is my first exam - then the following Wednesday is my last exam - it's almost all over, I'm almost free from wretched Uni! YAY!!! ^^!

But as to the other stuff - I think I've got a long ways to go - maybe... I'm free to be my own person - a servant of God, yet even as I know that, it seems like I'm trapped somehow. I'm not sure if it's because I'm still living at home and it seems like the whole house is keeping me down - maybe I'm ready to go. Maybe I'm ready - but why am I still so scared? What if the only thing that's stopping me from flying is myself? *sigh* I don't know, but if I find the answer I'll be sure to tell you.

Currently questioning,

Boni.

Procrastinating... -.-'

Yup. I am procrastinating - I'm supposed to be studying for my Communications Traditions exam that's on the fourth (Friday) of October. Two weeks to study, more or less, but I do have to study for my Law of Communications exam which is on the following Wednesday. Right now, I can't be bothered!! I'd much prefer to tell you about all the stuff that I haven't had a chance to write about. Well - not publicly, but you can bet your fuzzy pink toe-socks (Squuueeee! I jist lUff Fuzzy Pink ToeSockS! ^^!) that my Journal's heard all about it!!!

Like - My darling sister and I climbed up Mt. Taylor last Sunday (the 23rd) and blew bubbles up on the very tip-top of the world! At least, it was the tip-top in a direct vertical line down from our feet - but we'll ignore that fact!!! Heh - it just ruins all the fun....

And I went running around in the thunder storm yesterday evening - went and climbed a cliff and watched lighting play over the darkened skies of the city. Now that was cool. I doubt many people really know how obsessed I really am with thunderstorms. There's just something about them that speaks to me, and I just get so restless until I'm out in the wind and rain...

But enough of my random weirdness - well - not quite, 'coz I still don't want to study! >.>' So if I ramble please excuse me because I don't wanna stop, but I'm not sure I have much else to say - which in all actual truth that statement is not quite the truth because there is a lot I want to say, but maybe not now, maybe just because I don't even know what it is I want to say or will be saying, but in all retrospect - truth is so irrelevant anyway!

Meep! -.-' I think that line of thought had better stop there as there is no way I can follow it - though truthfully, I proably can.... And I'm just wondering whether or not any of you - whoever you are - can either? Which reminds me -

"I am who I think you think I am." Great isn't it? That was Cooly's Looking Glass Self. Which leaves me with a sore brain - not that I don't understand what he's trying to say - no, it's more this:

Well, if I am who I think you think I am - where does my whole "Running from the image that I think you think I am thing" come in? As in, if I really am who I think you think I am - that really doesn't work for me - as in, I think that I am the opposite of what I think that you think I am - at least I try to be the opposite!!! Meh - maybe I'm not. But if I think that you think that I am boring - does that really make me boring as I think that I am not boring, or at least try not to be boring and that it has nothing to do with what you think I am therefore???

O.o ...

Now you know why I have a sore brain! Not really - but hey - itsn't all fun?? ^^

Lol - please comment if you wish - I think it'd be great to hear what you think I am and whether or not I really am whom I think you think I am!

TTFN - TinkaBell

Watching and waiting....

Got my presentation over and done with (Thank goodness) and I got a credit plus on my essay which I had been totally stressing over!!! Would have got a distiction if I could speak "literary-ese", but I'm happy with what I got as it is - as in more like absolutely stoked! ^ ^

Just a quick note - I'm twenty in three days and that is sooooo incredably scary!!!! But hey, just another beat of my butterfly wings life... I'll live on, love on and DEFINATELY rock on!!!


Off to practise my layouts -

TinkaBell

Nose to the grind stone

Really putting my head down, and my socks up... I may be well and truely over Uni for this semester, but I'm getting on as I only have four weeks and two days until my exams are over, and I'm FFFFRRRRRRRREEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So. For now it's all about work, work, work as I really have to finish my last assessment peice and start studying for my exams. = P Even as I write this I just go - bleeergh... Icky work. But anyways, that's enough of the that. It's movtivation time!!!

Off to do some more Uni work after a 9:30 to 3:30 tut/assignment slog,

Boni.

Honey - I'm home!

Well, not really - but I'm back from Stump and I am still struggling with the whole getting "back to reality" (reality bites....) thing. But 'neways, I gotta get into my Uni work as there are only five weeks (ahhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!) until my exams is over, and I'm free for the rest of the year!!! BUT before I start cheering, I really gotta survive my exams first... >.>' *sigh* Oiy.

Besides that I'm having fun hanging with my friends and Crew so's it's all good. Distracting, but good. ^ ^ !


Oooo_uT for now,

TinkaBell.

Black SSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSTUM-PH!!!

Wella - it's gonna be ab-so-bally-LUTE-ly rockin' - I'm so syced about it! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO-HOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! ^_^

I'll up date on the way it goes later - but for now, I'm just hanging out for the fun to start. I'm planning to see Sons of Korah, Antiskeptic, Wishful Thinking and many, many more.... Dude. That is so freakin' awesome. I just hope I got everything, or there might be some issues... Naw. I't'll b kool. But that is one problem with camping - it is sssooo easy to forget something!!!

off for a stupendious trip-

Boni. ^_^

going crazy

Black Stump's on this weekend and I can't wait to get there!!! It's gonna be absolutely nuts! Whooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm in a bit of a wild mood tonight - I think it's the thunder, it always gets me restless, like I'm riding on the front of the wind, streaming over dancing treetops - spiraling high through the black thunder-heads... I'm riding the storm tonight and I'm not ready to stop.....




Tinka.

*silence*

Well. Stuff hasn't been that good this week, I had a 30% assignment due at the end of the week and I didn't know what to do on it... Yep, I procrastinated and procrastinated and procrastinated until it was the due day. I spent six hours straight on the computer finishing it off, and then I couldn't print it out so I have to wait until Monday to hand it in after all that!!! >0<

Having guy probs again... Sometimes I can cope with being single an' I love it, but sometimes, sometimes it just hits me. That lonely ache. Like when I'm hanging with guy friends, or watching movies with realllllyyyyy REAAAAAAAAAAAAAALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY REALLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY hot guys like Alex Capelli, who plays in "Hating Alison Ashley"... *drools* Uuwahhh! I luff Alex. >.>'
Then I go from having a buried little lonely ache into a big, huge, giganta-MONGUS lonely ache!! Guess I'll just have to stop watching movies with Alex Cappelli
and Omarion Grandberry in them. .................................................... yeah, right! -.-

Check y'all l8r,

T.

Quick note-

Just dropping in to say that I love snowshoeing, best friends, hanging out with the Crew, staying out late, sleeping in, my new bag, waiting for exciting stuff, music, and gymnastics. Other quick note to say I hate assignments, breaking down cars, spending my saved money, boys, being tired, ends of holidays, boys, not having enough time, not knowing what to do with essays, BOYS, and that little lonely ache I get some times....

That's about my life over the last week or so, and what it's consisted of.
Adios amigos,

Bonita. (a.k.a Tinka)

OOOOO- YAY!!!!!

"I'm walking on sunshine - whoaaaayeaHHH!"

So totally describes my mood right now - I'm walking sunshine !!!! An' don't feel good?? HOOO YE_AHHHH!!!! Why you ask? Just because!!! No, actually, there are lots of reasons - one of them being that I've finished the rough draft of an important essay due this Friday, and all I have to do is get my Dad to check it, and it's done!!! AND because I went on this awesome camp over the weekend - FREEZE. It's for yrs 12 to 25ish and it was GREAT! I learned HEAPS about God through His Word, and I had awesome time with my friends.

The best thing I learned was that even though I fail misarably at honoring God more often than not ( >.>' ), it doesn't matter because in Jesus I am made 10/10 with God! YAYYAY!!!! ^ ^ Of course that doesn't mean I can go living how ever I want, because then there are serious consequences, but if in my human weakness, I fall (ok, and I do that a lot) He'll pick me up, and it's all good. Thankyou God.

And beside that - it's just a Bea-UUUUtiFUl spring day - number seven to be exact - and I'm soo happy.

My prayer is that anyone who reads this may find the same joy and peace I've found. It's not too far away, just reach out for God and He will answer.

Lots of LOVE, Tink.

P.S. Can't forget the other reason why I'm so happy - it's Class Free for Uni students for the next two weeks, and I might be going to visit my bestie in Jindabyne next week which'll be awesome! yay. ^ ^

On top of things - for now

Coping for now with assignments, work, friends and life - I think eveything's ok atm. *nodds head* yep. It's all good. *claps hands* Yayyyy!!! >_<

I have an assignment due this Friday, and I'm getting on with it ok - I did a big one last week, and got it in ten minutes before the dead line (MEEEP! O.o' ) *shush - don't tell Daddy!* , I was so relieved when that was finished. I wasn't late because I left it to the last minute - no, in fact I think I spent too much time correcting. All up I spent ten hours on it - I hope that was enough... I really want to do well with the assesment.

Had fun out with my Crew on Saturday night, and I'm going away to FREEZE this weekend! No - not literally, ( or maybe literally?!? There's a thought! >.> ) Anyway, FREEZE is this awesome camp for year 12s to Uni age (about 25 year olds), in Cooma. We get great Bible teaching, and have fun fellowshiping with other denominations, and make new friends. It's GR-8!! = )

Well, that's it from me for now -

Huasta Leugo,

TB_o.

Hard

It's so hard when your best friend get a boyfriend. I mean, it's not like I'm unhappy 'coz she's got one. In fact I think it's great. It's just that she wants to spend her time with him. Mostly more than she does with me. I know that she's proabably not doing it on purpose - she's not the kind of girl to intentionally hurt anyone. It's just the way things go sometimes. But that doesn't make me feel any better when I'm the one getting ditched!!!

*sigh* Ahh well. Maybe it'll give me a chance to get to know some other people better. = ) I'm sure it'll be ok. I think I just need to talk to her a bit. Commmunication pretty much always helps!!

This theory of mine, by the way, has never failed me yet! ^^

Signing out for now,

T.

Bleeeggch

I hate not getting good marks, and I almost died over my last lot of marks, but hey, I gotta get it wrong sometimes eh? Just like when we were playing hang-man in my tutorial, before the tutor came, and I couldn't spell right!!! >< meh. It's all good. Had a good day at work today, and I've finally got an MP3 player - yeah, I had to save up - not enough dough.... *sigh* It's so awful when your a poor uni student... ~_^

Me thinks that be all the news so far - so have a good one everyone, and I'll check y'all 'round l-8aaaaa!!! = ) T.

Too much?

I haven't got much ta say - just that isn't amazing how you can get hooked from one thing to another? I dunno about you, but I find that happens to me like all the time.

Like (ugh I hate that word, but whatever...) when I watch a movie that's got dance in it - it's like all I want to do is dance... And if someone's talking about writing, or drawing, or something like that I get hooked on that too. There is SOOOOOOOO much stuff I wanna be good at - drawing, dance, music(learning to play the guitar!!!), writing, gymnastics and horseriding are just like the first few that are really important to me - then there's iceskating, soccer, photography, singing, and goodness only knows what else.... o! Snowboarding, computing, learning languages... Can anyone tell me - is there such a thing as TOO many hobbies???? I really am beginning to think that there is. I mean, how can you ever really be good at anything if you don't focus solely on that thing??

Maybe I have to just stick with learning the guitar, writing, drawing and gymnastics. For now. Maybe... Gah - dunno when, maybe when I'm older I'll learn some of the other stuff. Maybe.

Husta Leugo,

Tinka.

To dance the night away...

Whee!! I'm off to a "Heros and Villians Ball" and I'm going as a villian!!!

I was going to go as Posion Ivey, but as I didn't have the right clothes, I changed my mind and now I'm the Snow Queen from The Chronicles of Narnia. ^^ Woot - sooo much fun!!
Oh yeah - and a BIIIIEEEEEEGGGGGG

Happy Birthday

to my gorgeous sister who is now fifteen!

Off to dance...

Tinka

Killiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yes - killiiii (Kill - e) is the cry of the day when my stupid computer crashes!! *sigh* I wrote my microstory (400 words) for my Creative Writing class and than the program stuffed up and I lost it! I was ssoooo unhappy. And I had to write it over again - and of course, I couldn't remember the exact words. It's soo frustrating when that happens.

But I got over it, and wrote it again. I had to. And I'm not sure - but I almost think the story's better for it. But anyways, gotta go and get ready for work now -

Check ya, T.

Shruggs

Why is it that I always go and screw up everything???

Seriously, have you ever been on a roll - speaking out in your class, being friendly, doing something outside of yourself, and you've caught a weird glance from someone - anger, disgust, or horror?

I don't know what it is - but, *sigh* sometimes that happens to me - like today I talking in our discussion in our Tut. - not all the time, but at the end of the discussion, I caught something indescernable from my tutor - something not good, and I wonder if I've screwed up - talking to much or something. I was just trying to give feedback, but maybe I gave to much.

And even if I wasn't the intended reciepiant of the glance - I still question myself, and the way others veiw me. Am I really that insecure??? I guess I am. If the truth be told, I not sure if anyone else can see my insecurities - and I'm starting to feel that's a bad thing. Maybe. I DON'T KNOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >X O It's so frustrating - excuse my screaming, but I had to. How do other people see me????

Maybe I don't really want to know. It's not like I have a ton of friends, or a boyfriend for that matter - guess there's a reason. What it is I don't know, and I think if I did....


I'd break.



I'm the way I am, and no-one likes me like that. *plays the world's shortest tune, on the world's smallest violin* Sob-sob (sarcastically) I am so pathetic.


So, sorry all for the dump. I know I'm being stupid - or maybe I'm stupid full stop.

Your fool for life,

TinkaBell_o


Heck, a nickname like that - and I wonder why I'm so weird??? O.-

Ka-CHoO!!!

Headaches, sniffles and a nasty 'flu virus.... *sigh* Not cool. 'Specially when I've got work to do!!! Gah. Bye.

Have you?

Have you ever just written - not thinking what you are saying, but just getting your current thoughts down on page - hold you high and steal your pain, 'coz I'm broken, when I'm lonesome - and I don't feel right when you've gone... Sitting by the rain streaked window... Playing, listening to the music of loneliness... Giving into the weakness... When I'm lonesome....

Meh. You really can't do that when your listening to a song - the words in your head - your voice, is drowned out by the more powerful emotions and words that the song betrays. How can an ordinary sound be heard when it is flooded with the extrodinary?

Anyways, I think that that's enough of that - though I did get a interesting little piece (bout 300 words) done when I was given a random phrase by someone out of my Creative Writing Tutorial - which, by the way, was heaps of fun. But my 400 word microstory, plus my discussion notes have to be written in a week's time. At least it'll be over and done with then!!

Practising

It seems that I can never get to a point of 'good' work with either my art or writing. I guess that's the whole
"Those who are satisfied with medeocrity will always succeed, but those who are only satisfied with perfection will always fail." But as comforting as that is for my thing about always failing, it doesn't help when I can never get there. Anywhere!

It would be nice to able to look at something I've done and say - yes, that is good work. In the meanwhile, I guess it's all about practising. That's the only way you get anywhere. By working. >.> I think it makes what you acheive more worthwhile. But it's so hard to get to the point of acheivement. But that's just my opinion!

adios.

Inspiration

a flight of fancy

a flight of fancy takes to wing -
riding boldly on the backs of stars -
twisting, turning, it flutters through dreams -
only leaving the touch of a golden step -
a thin, fading, trail that beckons alluringly.

glistening and shimmering -
a shaft of pure immagination -
peircing through what it will -
like a lone, sun sent ray.

a wandering vision -
a golden dream -
easier it is to cage a nightingale -
than to catch the fleeting glory.

but through the translator -
the quicksilver takes form -
flowing across the snow-white plain -
showing with every twist and turn -
a facet of the changing picture.

and so the dreamers dream -
striving to follow the path -
capturing the shadow -
with it's reflection of faieries, elfs and nymphs.

lifting for a heart beat -
the veil that divides the face of reality -
from the vision of fantasy -
unicorns, dragons and magical beasts -
woven through guiding tales before.

so when elusive inspiration takes wing -
coaxing, calling to the restless below -
Come, Come tame the flight of fancy -
If you can!



we will try...




I wrote that some time ago - but when I was in my first Creative Writing lecture yesterday, I forgot it. There's nothing like sitting down in a room full of eager, talented writers (or musicians, or what have you) to make you feel insiginificant - that maybe you're not good enough after all. I am definately feeling a sense of inadequat, unoriginality. It's not like anyone thinks I'm a good writer or anything. Far from it. It's just what I do. Give me a blank peice of paper and a pen, and I draw. Give me a beautiful senery and I write. Kind of messed up - I know. It's not that I can't live without writing either. I don't know. As I said before - I guess it's just something I do. *sigh* There really is nothing I do that is spectacular in any way, shape or form. I write, I draw, I sing and sometimes dance. I horseride and do gymnastics. I am a student who likes to learn. BIG whoop. As you maybe able to tell - I have a great sense of ordinary-ness about myself and I hate it.

please spare a thought for me -
above all i'd rather be -
only born of originality......

That's almost a prayer for me. Yet it's further from my ways than - than - than smoking and drinking coffee is!!! (Yes, I don't smoke and I despise coffee - the taste anyways)

Meh. Stuck in a rut with no way out. I'm going to stop now before I start weeping.

Distantly yours,

TinkaBell.

-_-'

Okay - I would love to say that the reason for my not updating my Blog over the last month and a half is that I was in the heart of darkest Peru and I don't have a wireless laptop. And because darkest Peru hasn't got a very good connection and I was too busy fighting Anacondas anywas, I couldn't update. -_-' But that would be lying. For the truth is that while I've had my Uni holidays I've been extremely lazy, and not done a thing. I was going to practice my art - hand drawn and computer drawn, and write a few songs and stuff these hols, I didn't do any of that at all.... I did seem to drive around a lot for my parents, doing various chores, but other then that I just watched a lot of T.V. Which is really unproductive, but meh.

I really do do a lot more stuff when I've got a regular schedule, and there's lots of stuff to be done. So for that reason I'm actually quite happy to be back at Uni. And also, I am totally get over the brain turning into mush thing. This semester I'm doing Creative Writing 2, (which I'm really looking forwards to as I get to create my own portfolio!!), Laws of Communications, (sounds a bit boring, but anyways), and Communication Traditions. Sweet dude, totally sweet.

Uh... I know there's more stuff to be caught up on...

Right - S.o.L. has been scuttled before it even began. I only had two other people interested in joining up, and they were both guitarist - which isn't bad, but it wasn't working unfortunately.
I've started my adult gymnastics classes again (I stopped when I got broke) and have been pleasantly surprised with strength of my muscle memory - aka- I can do the stuff I used too, O.O - but I have noticed that my general muscular strength has been wayyyyy depleted - along with flexibility.

There's been lots of dramas over the last month - I've had to learn a lot of painful lessons, and sometimes I ask myself why God has to teach me all this stuff all at once? Why do I have to be smashed - why couldn't I just get pulled apart bit by bit??? But then again, that might be even more painful! My bestie also has had a bit of a drama concerning boys, but what else is new?? Boys are such trouble. The good news is she's pulled through, and they're just friends. For now.

Me and my sister got up recently at an open mike night - no preparation, and no backing, and sung 'The Water Buffalo Song' - the Veggie Rocks version, and it was fun!! Mind you, I don't think I'll be doing it again like that - but I would like to get up and sing some other time. We'll see.

I'm preparing to head out to FREEZE for a weekend in September, and then I'll be rockin' out at Black Stump!!! I can't wait - it's gonna be great. It will be my first 'Stump - considering that I always heard about it too late, but this time I've got it sorted, so it should be all good.

Hmm. I think that that's about it for now - but I will update regularly now that I'm back at Uni, so :

TTFN -
TaTa For Now - Tinka. ^^

Finding Stuff

I'm finding stuff out. I'm finding that I'm glad to be single - I don't have to worry about someone else's heart - just my own. I'm finding that I love hanging out a lot - but I don't like getting lost. I'm finding out that my art is coming along quite nicely, especially now that I've found new ways to shade. I'm also finding that there is more good music out there that I ever imagined and I don't think I can compete with it all! I'm finding that I'm growing up, but not growing any wiser or in descernment - (O Lord, please help me!) I'm finding that I still follow my feelings too much. I'm finding that I make mistakes - a LOT of mistakes. I'm finding that holidays are boring if you don't do anything while you're doing nothing. I'm finding that I can make new friends. I'm finding that maybe I'm not such a freak after all. I'm finding that God is absolutely, without a doubt, the bestest. I'm finding the rain is wonderful, as well as wonderfully cold. I'm finding that I'm just me. The way I am. I'm finding life!!! ^ ^

My Web Page

MY WEB PAGE - yes, it's linked for you.

So there you go. I finally could be bothered and built myself a web page. It's got all the links I like and the sites I frequent - just in case anyone would be *gasp shock horror* interested!!!!!! : I Heh - I'm actually getting the hang of HTML code too ( O.o' ). It's lotsa fun!!! ^^

Speaking (or writing) of fun, I had a great time shopping with my bestie this arvo.; even though I didn't have any money, heck - I figured out you don't need money when you can spend your friend's money on her!! >.< AND my other bestie came up from Jindabyne and stayed the night as she was on her way to Sydney. Lots of cool bonding time. 'Neways, gotta go get ready for more shopping.... O ya - a new cool site I found yesterday!

Lyrics on Demand

It's so awesome - I found lyrics I'd been wanting for millions of songs! So if you wanna know the rest of that-song-that-you-only-know-one-line-of-that's-tormenting-you-by-playing-
in-your-head-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and-over-and
-over-and-over-and-over-and -------------- (ect.)

Well, you get the picture. Check it out!

Off to shop 'til she drops - Boni. ^^

Slowness

Meh - it's time to gripe about how sucky it is that my band is taking FOREVER to get off the gound...

I just want to get started, but I'm starting to think that maybe this wasn't such a good idea. I figured out last night that the reasons I wanted to start this whole thing - maybe they weren't the right ones. But it's changed. I really want this band to work - like the passion I feel about good literature for teens. I'm starting to think the same way about music. It's such a vital part of life for so many, but so often it's just not ... Meh - not right anyway.

Music should provoke thought, make people examine their lives - or at the very least, reflect on our awesome God. I'm not saying that you can't have your fun songs, or dance songs, or any of that. Just that there should be good stuff as well as the usual. Of course, this is just my opinion, and many may not agree with me. But that, I feel, should be the goal of Shades of Light. To create thought provoking, mindful music. Mind you, when it's put like that it sounds sooooo stuffed shirt-y. The music won't be though - I love to rock too much for that to happen!!! ^ ^

Drop the bass line!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Rock on the Rock - Tink_A. :)

That Feeling....

Do you ever get that feeling where you are waiting for something - anything - to happen? Usually when you do, you go make some plans to do something. You wait for an hour, maybe two, for your friends to get back to you and then your friends text back and go "Oh sorry I actually can't do anything today." or whatever. How much of a let down is that!!! So annoying... Especially when that stupid expectancy won't leave you alone then.

Meh. Anyways, I'm posting up something I drew last night - it's not all there, 'coz my scanner isn't big enough, but I hope you can get the drift. I'll put it in my art gallery 'coz i can't get it up.

La-li-la!

I'sa been at work alllllll day - well not quite, from 10:30 'til 3:15 and my feet HURT!!! But I'm happy now, 'coz I heard my newst favourite song - 'Don't phunk with my heart' by The Blackeyed Peas on the way home - an' wheee! It's all good.

Everytime I think about him - I banish him from my mind. I think it's working, except now he's escaping and starting to haunt my dreams. It hurts. But I've gotta push through this. *sigh*

"I'm blue - dee-dee-di-dum-dee-dee-di-dum... Inside and outside..."

La-la *sings along to I'm Blue* I luff singing and music - it always makes me feel better.

Happi-er now,

Yours, TinkaBell. ^^

Everything old is new again...

I can't believe it's another month, yet here we go again! I wonder what will come? Proably a re-run of everything old so it's new again. What with boy troubles - meh: I'm soooo over all the annoy-ing-ness, seriously! - work, Uni, friends, and all that jazz, it's nothing new, yet I'm sure it will seem that it is when it comes around. ;_; *sniff* Dunno why that makes me want to cry, but it does. Maybe I'm just in a crying mood...

*bounces* But not for long. I've found a new group of friends that have welcomed me most nicely and it's been great times hanging out with the them, that I hope will continue. And I'm finally (sort of) getting my car. Mum and Dad are buying a new car and I'm getting Dad's old work one - a Nissian Bluebird SSS. Cool huh? No, it's not new, in fact it's ten years old, but it's a 4 cylinder and I think (*_8) it rocks! It's much nicer than anything I would've been able to afford anyway. 'Course, Dad hasn't really given me the car, but I get first dibs, and I won't have to ask to take it out. Which totally rocks.

Heh - great times. Although I'm still breakin' my heart, I've choosen to get over him, and that's that. Choose your love and love your choice. That's what I'm living by right now. Meh. And I'll make it, I know I will. With God's help I can do anything!!!!!!

So I'm off for now, gotta try and sell our old VW so's my sister and me can re-do our bedroom in Dad's office,

Bye.

Dropping off the radar

Sorry to anyone who's interested about the lack of up-dates. I just happen to be going through a really stressful time right now.

What with the low of exams - Thank the Lord they're over - the high of going out with my friends, the low of finally admitting to myself that I HAVE to stop liking the guy I like, and the high of holidays - I've just been up and down on an emotional rollacoaster all week!!! O.* '

It's killed me I must admit. I am soooo tired. I just want for everything to go away, to settle down in a cottage with a nice RIDEABLE horse just out side and a beach on my front doorstep. Meh, I wish.....

*sigh*

Anyway, I'm sure things will start to look up soon. Though SoL hasn't got off the ground as of yet, and that's kind of being messed up. Never mind. Things will change, and in the mean time, the Lord is with me.

Adios, Tink.

---- Silence ----

Heheh. Can't think straight - I'm sooo starting to get really nervous. These exams are going to kill me!!! Gah. Gotta stop being so negative about them. *takes a deep breath* No, I'll be fine. It's going to be okay.

I'm going to a part-A, I'm going to a part-AAA!!!!! Yey! This weekend (yes - the weekend before exams) is my bestest friend's 18th birthday party. It's gonna be great fun!

But right now, I don't feel like celebrating for some reason. I'm in a silent mood I guess. I'm not really sure of the characteristics of a silent mood - besides the silence (DUH), but it's definately a grey mood. Hmm. Dunno why though. It's not the exams, and it's not financial troubles, or lack of socialness. It's not because things are bad - God has been extremely good to me and my family. I'm not sure why I feel this way, but I do. *whaaa* I need a hug!!! :'(

*sighs* owell, back to life. At least I don't have to stand on my own - I know that He is with me, and that's better than anything.

Down in the grey for now,
Tinka.

Perfect

"It's got to be - ooohohyeah - per_fect. It's got to be - ooohohhhoyeah - peeeerrrrrr _FECT!"

The last week has been the topest week ever! Super-duper busy, but still tops. It all started Saturday night, when I went to the UBD gig, then hung out with my friends til 2:00am. Then on Sunday I had a great day at my new work, Hill Station, then my Dad AND Mum both got new jobs as well, (THANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOUTHANKYOU LORD!) then I got that Report done, then I went to my friend's 20th after painting him his Birthday present ( picture which I think he liked ) and then I hung out with my friends again, then I went to work on Friday night, which was good, and THEN on Saturday I had a sleepover with my sister, and her friend which was really fun, and today's been really good and everything is just better then PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!

*happy sigh* I think I'm am finally moving off that crush as well, even though I totally got it back last weekend, but now I hope I'm able to move on. But that's really good. Only have to survive my exams - and squeeeeeeee! I'm just loving life! Time for bed now though,

Kisses an' Huggles,

TinkaBell ~_^

WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOT

I have had the BESTTTT weekend - got to go to a Use By Date concert Saturday night, got a new job, which is turning out to be super-fantastic, had soooo much fun with my friends Saturday night - Wheeee! I'm so happy! Thankyou Lord for being the bestest!
Mind you, I'm also happily tiredddd. Stayed up 'til 2:00 am Sat., and couldn't go to sleep 'til 12:00 am last night. I can hardly keep my eyes open. And I still haven't finished that @#)#$$ report that's due this Wednesday first thing, and I have to work tomorrow at 11:00 am to about 3:00 - 4:00, maybe later... And biggest narky thing of all - my exams are in two weeks time, including this week. --- *sigh* ---
But once all that is over, life'll be really sweet for a while. I'm getting my car (FINALLY) soon, and with the cash flow, and friends, and SoL, it's gonna be pretty awesome. Just gotta get through these last two weeks. Please Lord, give me strength.

Yours half happy, a quarter tired and a quarter scared,

Tinka.

Work - or rather procrastintation.

So much work to do and all I can do is procrastinate... I have a lot of stuff that I have to do at home, and tomorrow is my only day to do it. AND tomorrow is going to be chokers with an interview, running my sister around, and going to Tugganerong to drop in a resume and go shopping for the UBD concert. At least, my sister's going shopping - I'm just the chauffeur!

Gah. Okay, sorting stuff out... Can't do IMEC prep. here (at Uni), can do C.F. prep. and some of my Report for IMEC. Alrighty, really should be working now.... Now.... Now.... Now..... Now...... Now........................................................ >>'

Gah. Bye. T.

OHHH!

USE BY DATE ARE BACK!!!!!!!!!!!!! Oooohhh ye-aH!!! ^^

I can't believe I almost forgot to tell the world - Use By Date are back in business!! SQUEEEE! *.* I don't know for how long, but they're playing a gig next Saturday night, and I'm soooo stoked. (If I had my way, this font would be gittery gold, but plain gold was as close as I could get!) Man, next Saturday is going to ROOOOCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!!!!!!!!

Sorry about the double post, I just had to inform everyone of the happy, happy news!!! *bounces off singing to herself* Forever, forever, forever - Eternity!!!!

Byyyeee - Tink. ^^

New again

It is a new month again - gee, time flys so quickly - I hardly know where the days go. This month is exams - actually, they're in three weeks time (meep!) and I've got one report to do and that's all the major assesment then this term is over. OVER! OVER I TELL YOU! That is so scary - I could hardly imaigine going to Uni, and now, I'm almost at the end of my cross-over program.

Good stuff has been happening though - got an interveiw which I hope will work out, Rusty is being an ABSOLUTE pain, but is sloooowwwwllly coming right, I'm getting on with my graphic novel, and I will soon be free to start up my band! Sweeet Dude, totally swweeeeet! ^-^

*sigh* Thanks God for being so awesome, and helping me through life.

Gotta go, T.

SupA chic

Dear Diary,

I met this guy at a show,
He was singing to me - at least I think so...

Ha. Take off Super [Chick] , I know - but so true. That's how I fell over into a huge crush for... Well, a huge crush on my crush. (Sooo not mentioning any names - you never know who might read this!!!)
I'm still not over him, even after months of mix-ups, not speaking to each other, only MSNing, living (or DIEING) through another girl.... Whaaaa!!!! That still hurts! No, he didn't get her, but he told me alll about it! >< *sigh* and telling him off, ever so slightly, then him being nice to me - *shock*, instead of ignoring my exsistance..... Yeah, I know. I'm so pathetic, yearning after a boy who barely knows me, let alone cares for me. Yet, as much as I would, I can not steal my heart back.

Anyway, enough of pathetic girlyness, - hmmmm, that's so weird. I was just reading over wht I had written, and I think I realise the problem. He is just a boy. So far, not that I can really judge, 'coz he won't communicate with me the important stuff (like the thoughts in his head), he is just a boy. Not a man. ................................

Whoa. That's really big. I guess I would also describe myself - through a guy's eyes, as just a girl too. And maybe that's everything. How can a boy really commit to anything, and how can a boy protect my heart? And how can I, as a girl, be the woman he needs to stand at his side - to give him what he needs. .......................

I've just has a major revelation. What I'm looking for the man I need. Not to live - for all I need for that is God, but just to not be lonely, to have someone who shares how I work, think, what makes me me, and delights in that on this Earth. And for that I need a man. Not a boy. Maybe I should be gald that my crush doesn't notice me. For if he proved to be the man I need, would I prove to be the woman he needs? O. That's a gigantious thought.

At the moment, however, I don't think the guy I like is a man. I don't know for sure, I don't know him all that well, for he won't let me know him well. But in any case, from what I can tell, what he's said to me, he still just a boy - wanting to have fun, and not caring how he gets it.

That's sad. I wish it weren't that way, but it is. What will be, will be.

All in the Lord's timing,

TinkaBell.

-_-

Wheee!!! Had my best friend sleep over last night - we got sleep at a decent time (1:00 am) but still slept in 'til 11:30... *blink* I don't know why I'm tired. Maybe (most proably!) it's the thought of Uni tomorrow. Yuck... Owell.

Haven't gotten very far with ah - I forgot the name... I think I also lost the notebook where I put the idea down in as well. Rats. I really am gonna have to find it, or I won't get my graphic novel done at all.

*zzz* Gotta go now,

T.

Oekaki sweet-i_ness!!! ^^

WoooT!!! I founded the bestest thing eva!!! It's called an Oekaki Board, and basicly it's a place on the 'Net where you can go and draw really prettttyyyy (uwahhh! >.<) pictures. It's got the same sort of set up as a basic photoshop shop deal - so it's realllyyyy uber-ly awesome. The one I draw on ('coz there's heaps you can choose from) is Oekaki Central - here's the link.

http://www.oekakicentral.com


Hope any other loving to draw peoples enjoy this cool way to improve and show off your art as much as mesa. 'Neways, gotta go an' draw a pretty piccy - Byee!!! T.

I'd do anything!!!

"I close my eyes..... I try to sleep, I can't forget you..... I'd do anything for you!" Go Simple Plan!!!!!! Whoooooo! They rocK!!!

I love their music, but even more I like making my own music. In case you can't guess where this is going, I'll tell you. At the end of the semester I am going to start up my own band - Shades of Light, or S.O.L. for short. (Pronounced soul.) And it's gonna rock! As soon as I can find more members besides me, I'll be able to start it up. I'm looking for dedicated Christians who want to spread God's Word and have a some fun too! ^-^ After I've found them I guess I'll see where it goes.


But that's not all that's happening. My bestest bud came up for the weekend, and we had a great time!!! I can't wait - coz in a month or so her 18th B'day is coming up, and she's throwing a weekend long pAr_tA!!!!!! It's gonna be sooooo SWEeeT. In the mean time, I gotta get on with my work.


Signing out,


T.


P.S. Check out this kwel quote from a friend of mine - "So I've taken 1 step forward, walked around till my head spun, then realised I'd fallen over. Upon picking myself up, I also realised that I'd only hurt my head, and moved back a spot."

*sniff*

Blerrgh... I'm sick with a nasty 'flue virus. I'm going to bed now. Meh, don't ask why I even bothered to do this - my head is spinning around... Owell, that's craziness for you. *Sneezes* Ick. I hate being sick....

T *sniff* out.

Empty

Got my essay done.

That's it from me today.

I'm off to watch Freaky Friday.

Bye.

Eyeeeed.

So tired. I still haven't finished that darn essay. I was supposed to do it today, but I went iceskating last night, and didn't get enough sleep. Now I can't think straight. It's almost like my mind is still stuck half-way in dreamland. It hasn't made the transition into the real world, it didn't get enough time to run through sleep-circle last night. Gah.

'Nighty-nite, T.

Conversation

Aw rats.... Can't find enough of the conversation to make sense 'coz even though I saved all the letters I got, I didn't save my replies....

Owell. The basic gist of it was that guys can be an absolute pain when letting a girl (who maybe screaming in her head for the guy to do something!) know how he feels. Of course, to be fair it is really hard to open yourelf up for rejection.

My feeling was that if a guy really likes a girl, he will tell her because that feeling will overcome his fears. On the other hand, as my friend pointed out, if a guy really likes a girl, it could also make things worse, because the fear of rejection from someone who means so much to you can be very real and very hard to overcome.

I think that was about it actually.

Bye again, T.

"Go-ing under_"

Got a huge essay due on Monday - it's worth 30%... Yuck.

But on the plus side, I'm going iceskating tomorrow night with my Focus friends so that should be really awesome. It's kind of weird, the way things are going right now. I want things to be different and exciting, but at the same time I wish everything would settle down.

We had our group presntation due today, and we aced that - which is cool. But why does everything feel so topsy-turvey? Like my life isn't the right side up or something? I'm feeling strange, like I've suddenly gone all smooth - changed into a ball and slipped out of my triangluar hole in life. I don't know. My work is going reasonably well, I'm hoping I'll get a H.D. in both my classes. I need to prove some stuff to some people. I love all this new stuff I'm learning - bah. I just don't know what the flip is going on around me. I'm standing still, at the center point of today, while yesterday and tomorrow are blurring as they circle me.

Pfffft.... * * *

I'm over it.

* * *

I'm still searching for a job, I hope something comes along soon.


I was having an interesting conversation with my friend via e-mail the other day, unfortunately I may not have it all as I didn't save my letters. However, I put as much as I can up on the next post. It might be helpful for those with issues with the opposite sex. (Yeah, my friend's a guy, so we have both points of veiw.)


Thought of the Day: What's your eternal life expectancy?

Ciao,

Tink.

Woot -

I've got a job interveiw this evening - I hope I get called back! It's a group interveiw for a cinema, but I'm not sure how many people are going to be in this group. Apparently, I'll go in and if they like me, they'll call me back again, for a single interveiw. Oh, pllllleeeeaaaaasssssssssseeeeee let me get this job!
Night work will mean extra rates or whatever, maybe a higher flat rate, but I bet you anything it'll be way better than $10.00 an hour which is all you get for waitressing! Plus, it'd fit in so neatly with my Uni schedule it's not funny. So the long and the short of it is that I really want this job.
And I really want to be not broke anymore! New clothes are a must, and I might be getting a car soon! Which'll be really awesome!
I want an old-school VW Beetle, but I'm not sure. I might end up with something else. The biggest requirement for me is that it is fuel-effeciant. Poor, broke, proverty-stricken Uni student that I am, I don't really care if it doesn't go that fast *gasp-shock-horror* or whatever. I just need to save every penny where-ever I can. Heheh, maybe I can find some helpful (Gah - what am I saying?) boy to do a bit of tuning up for me.
I know Beetles can be modified a bit, and I think that'd suit me nicely. I really wish I could get a NICEEEE car - but meh, owell, maybe later, when I've made my fortune as a novelist/journalist! (I wish!)

I've gotta bounce - I'll see ya'll later,

Tinka.

Dam Boys!!!!!!!!!!!!

Black and blue, black and blue. That's the color I would like to see all boys.... They are sooo frustrating. I never know where I stand with any of them! *sigh* My crush is being an absolute pain - nice and friendly one moment and blowing me off the next... What does it mean when a guy is happy to talk to you, but doesn't want to see you at all???

I guess I'll never know.

Grey today, T.

Stuff

I've decided to put up another site of interest - or maybe it's not. Meh. I dunno! Anyways it's - http://www.photobucket.com/


I think that if you go there and do a search, you'd probably find heaps of interesting stuff. You could look up my album, Etches, as well! >.> Not that I have much stuff in it yet anyways. But I am gonna keep updating it. It'd probably get more stuff in it if I had the proper programing to ink and color my artwork. I could do it by hand, but either way I don't have enough dough to buy the gear I need. To do it on the computer or by hand... #_+ |!f3 $uX$ - $0 Ph34r Me!! Heh. Eyah, I know that's a direct MegaTokyo quote, or at least the last part is. The "|!f3 $uX$" is alll mine.

Meh. I'm bored, in case you couldn't tell. XP. Stupid nothings to do on Friday nights. Geez - you'd think there's something I could do, or somewhere I could go!!!

Right that does it - I'm off to round up some friends and go out.

Signing out, |-_!_|\|_|<_4...>

New times are a coming...

No - it's not some cry for the world - that it's all "Coming to an end", it's just my way of welcoming in the new month. Everyone, say Hola to April. *crowd roars* Hola!!!!

New month already. Gee, I can't believe I've been at Uni for 6 weeks already. It's kind of scary how fast stuff goes.

Oh yeah, I've been accused of whinging about guys on this site, but I just wanna say that's not quite correct. I am not whinging - I am merely verifying my feelings of frustration through verbal or rather, in this case, written, expression. But hey, at least it's better than punching out some poor (or not so poor) guy!!

Anyway, I've got to go write my essay and design a guitar for a friend,

Adeu, T.

Lists.

Have you ever heard the wolf cry -
to the blue corn moon?

Don't ask me why I've got that song in my head, 'coz I don't know...
Anyways, things are going okay for me. Had to get up at 6:30am again today - X P - but I'll survive. I think. Uni work is all on track, except for my Group Presentation for IMEC - we really gotta get cracking on that!

Of course, besides that, boys are being pains still, but hey, what else is new???
I really am thinking, however, that my main problem right now is that I'm broke. Dead, flat, not-a-single-cent, empty as a rag picker's pocket, broke. I have to find a new job and soon! I have so much stuff I need to buy.

1. New clothes - i.e., two jumpers, eight winter shirts, one pair of jeans(?), and a pair of sneakers.
2. A notebook, and a memory stick. (I just can't carry around a laptop - too big.)
3. An MP3 player - no, I can not be bothered getting an IPod. For me, if it does the basic job, than it's good enough.
4. A CD burner
5. I could probably go on, but meh. I'm gonna have to focus on just a few things at first I think.


So much for trying to be happily single - oooh! Who's that hottie? >.> Eyah. I know, I know, but I just can't help myself....

TTFN, gotta a class starting,

Tinka. ^-^

Buniis

Hey'all - it's Easter Sunday, and everythings sweeeet as can be - literally!!! (Yummmyyyy chocolate for brekkie - Squeeeee!!!! .....^-^!)

Rockin' to the jammin' (ogosh - how old are those words???!) tunes of DC Talks, an' chillin' out with my littl' sis', trying to fix up a website for the UCU Writer's Society. Heheh - so many apsotrophied words!!!!! But I can't get into the HTML format, so I'm stuck for now.

Hands up girls, who's having boy troubles??? MEMEMEME!!!!!!!!!!!! I dunno what it is, but if it isn't some crush that won't look at me, or some guy paying me too much attention than disappearing, or just plain annoying boys - it seems that life and guys can never be easy. Why me?? *sigh* I wish... Meh - then again, I don't know what I wish for - I just know that I am totally confused and it's really getting on my nerves. But anyways....

C ya l8r,

Tinka.
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Boooo_yeah_A!

It's Saturday, and I've got to do Uni work, but for some reason I'm still really happy....
*sings* I'm happy, happy, happy, I'm happy again..... It's Mac Time now!

Does anyone besides me remember that ad.? Owell, I think I'm so happy, 'coz God is sooo AwEsomE!!! Thankyou Lord, for being the best.

Yeyeeyeyay! My bestest bud, besides my sister, Emi, is coming up from Jindabyne, to stay over Monday night - that's gonna be soo Kwell. And I'm sleeping over at my other bestes bud's house on Sunday night. WooHoo!!! Go Sleepovers!!!!! (aka Wakeovers, but 'neways...) O.o
Gotta go - I'll fill in the Easter weekend details after Easter weekend,

^^, Lots of huggles and kisseees,

Tinka.

P.S. I still hate boys... Just for the record, they are really confusing and absolute pains in the @$$-z...

P.S. II But that doesn't mean I'm not happy! Happy-ly hating boys. ^^ Bo_yah!

P.S. III When you drown in all that yummy chocolate, don't forget - Jesus is the reason for the season... (Bad quote, I know, but He is!) He died and rose again, just so we might live, and that's the only reason for Easter - yes, even the chocolate and the Easter bunny came later. If you wanna find out the whole story, check out the gospel of Mark. Yeah, it's in the Bible, but that doesn't mean it's hard to read, or understand. Go on - it won't kill you to take a look! And yeah, I dare you.