Ugh. Another trip to the doctor's tomorrow. And that would make the third appointment this month alone. They keep giving me new pills to pop and stopping the old ones (but only 'coz I protested against continuing the medication which I am positive wasn't helping at all!) and generally being so helpful as to say "You can call for the results of your tests" only to for me to call them and find out that I've still got to got the doctor for the 'medical professional' to tell me that everything is negative! Grrrrrr......
Honestly, it's enough to make you sick! = p
In other news, my online studio, b.dot.depictions will be going live sometime soon I hope. I've designed my website, now I just have to get it on the web and working. Which, of course, is the hardest part of all! Making things look pretty is easy - I've been doing it all my life. It's the technical stuff that's got me stumped. I guess that's why God invented guys. So that they can do all the hard yards and leave the girls like me to make things beautiful. :3
The world of profession artists is apparently closer within my reach, yet still seems so far out of my grasp. For it almost seems impossible that someone like me should get paid to do something that I love. I mean, I know it happens. That's why there are even artists out there at all.
But somehow I can only imagine it happening to the 'suffering artist' who spends every waking moment on his art - who sweats and groans and labours over every detail....
Not me, who just goes - "OOOOOOOO! It's a shot!" *click* or spends less than a third of the year on her drawing because she has so many other interests..... I suppose by the time you add it all up, because I most definitely do do work on one of my projects each week, even if it's just a little bit - either writing, drawing or photography, (or even research through reading - which all writers are supposed to do; and I KNOW I've got that base well and truely covered!!) I do work all year round. Just not on one thing.
Which totally makes me feel like I'm not that dedicated or something, so therefore the hallowed halls of 'Professional' art is some how completely beyond me. But someone once told me that an artist can be a master of more than one medium - just look at Michelangelo - the great sculptor and artist - David and the Sistine Chapel anyone?
So I try to keep that in mind, and I try to keep up with my work. Because I do want to do it for more than just the title; I do it because I want to show a broken world that things can be healed, can be made whole - that life can be beautiful, but only through a relationship with the living God.
And somehow I think that art can express the beauty of a restored life. I hope to show that.
Maybe one day I will....
Until then,
b.
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