Shruggs

Why is it that I always go and screw up everything???

Seriously, have you ever been on a roll - speaking out in your class, being friendly, doing something outside of yourself, and you've caught a weird glance from someone - anger, disgust, or horror?

I don't know what it is - but, *sigh* sometimes that happens to me - like today I talking in our discussion in our Tut. - not all the time, but at the end of the discussion, I caught something indescernable from my tutor - something not good, and I wonder if I've screwed up - talking to much or something. I was just trying to give feedback, but maybe I gave to much.

And even if I wasn't the intended reciepiant of the glance - I still question myself, and the way others veiw me. Am I really that insecure??? I guess I am. If the truth be told, I not sure if anyone else can see my insecurities - and I'm starting to feel that's a bad thing. Maybe. I DON'T KNOWWWWWW!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >X O It's so frustrating - excuse my screaming, but I had to. How do other people see me????

Maybe I don't really want to know. It's not like I have a ton of friends, or a boyfriend for that matter - guess there's a reason. What it is I don't know, and I think if I did....


I'd break.



I'm the way I am, and no-one likes me like that. *plays the world's shortest tune, on the world's smallest violin* Sob-sob (sarcastically) I am so pathetic.


So, sorry all for the dump. I know I'm being stupid - or maybe I'm stupid full stop.

Your fool for life,

TinkaBell_o


Heck, a nickname like that - and I wonder why I'm so weird??? O.-